~€我不是仙丹€~

ThoUgHt that i had never hurt you.....

2011-01-28T04:41:00.000-08:00

I dont want to hurt you.....
maybe i am cruel now.....
but it's the most possible decision from me by now.....
i dont really know whether do i love you or either like you......
however i just feel horrible when i am in love.....
this kind of relationship is just troublesome.....
i want to halt it.....
but it's just reaching the halfway......
and i cant make up my mind to break this for a sudden.....
i keep on dragging.....
thinking that you will forget about me slowly.....
however......
it doesnt really work out nicely....
what is happening is that......
i dont even know what i want!!
it's difficult to make a decision......
it's not a piece of cake.....
thinking that i will never be able to tell you that you are just too special and i cant treat you like that......
i broke the promise......
and i mended it back.....
i am just LOST!!!!
Losing self-control and self-confidence.....
cant blame you on this.....
but please dont try to get close me anymore.....
since i am not a medicine for your heart......
but a poison to your soul.....
Let Go youRsElf and.....
PleaSe jUsT lEt Me Go....

像老鼠般地活着........

2010-07-24T05:19:00.000-07:00

姐.......
你的离开......
让我的生活出现了巨变.......
我的家.....
我的房......
我在家的地位......
我自己.......
都变得乱七八糟了......

最近......
我的国土被外来者侵袭....
虽然只是表面上的移花折木.......
但是它已经不属于单纯的一个我了.....
我的房间.......
被人住了..........

我无话可说......
毕竟他是我哥.....
那个是他的女朋友......
但唯一令我接受不到的是................
他们从不出现"不好意思"的表情......
甚至连对不起又或是谢谢这样的字眼也从不会从他们的口中泄漏出来.......
就算装装也好......
至少让我的心舒服一点......

被赶了出来后......
我到了爸妈的房间......
原本只是想投宿一宵......
没想到.......
早晨醒来.......
自己已被爸爸指责.......
他要我搬去睡客房........
原因是.....
我也不清楚......
我不明白......
为什么......
才过了这么一天一夜.......
我的生活却可以到反/......
原本好好的地方......
原本属于我的东西......
却被一扫而空.......
我不怨恨谁......
我只是.......
想念我亲爱的姐姐......

如果有你在.......
没人敢这样冒犯我了......
虽然以前就知道.....
有你在.......
我有多幸福.....
但是现在......
还是想说一次.....
姐.......因为你!
我是幸福的......!!

今晚该去哪里???
我还没有作决定......
可能也轮不到我去作这个决定.......

现在的我.....
就像是一只老鼠......
四处隐藏......
才愕然发现........
四处为家......
要找一个藏身栖息地.......
绝非易事!!!
今晚.......
让天来帮我作这个决定吧!!!

能不能给我一首歌的时间......??

2010-07-10T18:30:00.000-07:00

我姐不在了......
她去了一个遥远的地方...
她流泪.....
我的眼泪也随之一起滑落.......
我爱他....
他也一样爱着我!!
我很开心有她这么一个美丽又善良的姐姐.....
他也很骄傲有我这个傻呼呼的妹妹.......
我们多么愉快地相处了18年......
今年.......
我们却分开了!
有很多千言万语不能由口而发......
只能凭着想念来传达.....
姐......
怎么办????
我好想你哦!!!!

那天送走了你.....
我还记得.....
那时候下着大雨....
我们曾走在雨下的大马路.....
哭红着双眼...
苦笑对彼此说......
要好好保重......
别轻易相信陌生人的话!
当时我们都楼者彼此......
这么感性的话.....
听了都会让人悲感加重.......
你是多么的弱不经风!
如果我们不在你身边的话.......
你能健康地活下去吗???

姐......
那天你在电话的另一头......
哭得稀里哗啦的.....
我说我要安慰你.....
可是我却办不到......
什么是雨过天晴??
我告诉你后我却摸不著头脑.....
你说你住家没有水供应....
已经好几天没能洗衣服.....
连刷牙洗脸都得用矿泉水.....
衣服不够穿时.....
还得把旧衣服挖回出来穿.....
这种事....我不能保证!
雨过天晴这四个字......
好凝重!!
如果始终没有水.....
那么.....
你该怎么办??
连安慰你......我都做不好!!
以后我该怎么放心让你一个人在那呢??

还有.....
你辛苦地嚷着要回家.....
我只能唉声叹气......
因为我没有理由劝你别继续深造......
因为......
学历是无比的重要啊!!!!
对你......
我实在非常抱歉!!!
我心想......
如果这一切都发生在我身上.....
我想我会比你更坚强!!!
因为.......
我是你傻呼呼的妹妹!!!

姐!!
请你务必要好好照顾自己......
虽然我们不在你的身边.....
但是你永远都会留在我们的心里!!!
我们都爱你！！！！

能不能给我一首歌的时间。。。。。。
让我对你说。。。。。。
那三个字。。。。。。

“祝福你”

Far from my SiGht.......

2010-06-18T08:57:00.000-07:00

My beloved sister......
Lim Qin Zheng......
i know you are going to leave the home soon......
I want you to know that i would miss you badly......
i know that we both are not used to say goodbye to one another.....
I also know that when i was in NS Kemp for 3 months......
you thought of me everyday.......every hour.......every minute......
but this time......
you are leaving for 3 years.......
how am i going to live without your appearance..??
I scare i may not success......

Sister......
the way and journey to your future is not that easy and straight.....
there will always be some challenges and forks at the middle of the road......
waiting for you to solve.....
Dont panic!!
i know you can do it......
and you can do it better without your family........
Now....
We would have to let you go.....
Fly through the beautiful sky and grab what you want in your life......
Just wait and watch carefully.......
and you could touch and feel the honour!!

Herm......
3 years is pretty long.......
for me and you to change......
hope that we would still recognize each other after this period of time......
not knowing how would it be the life in sabah........
but i wish and hope that everything will go just alright and steady.....
Gambateh oh Sha po.......

Sha po!
I really love you!!
I appreciate what you have done for me......
always care of me.......
always advise me.......
always love me.......
no matter how i have treated you.....
Thank you** my Sweety!

Jie.......
every morning we would have breakfast together.......
that's the time that i really enjoy and really like!
just one simple gardenia's bread and it would brigthen up the day.....
just 30 minutes sitting together.....
having milo with bread.......
and that would cheer we up!!
I love that moment!!
do you feel it too??

however......
i cant have breakfast with you for the next 3 years.......
without you.......
and without this leisure moment as i would have to rush to school......
i dont really think that i would enjoy my breakfast anymore......
but at least......
I HAVE EXPERIENCED.......

3/7......
Before this date.......
i am going to grab any single chance to be with you......
i wont let myself to regret!
i want to accompany you for the rest of the time beofre you are leaving.....
Come on Jie!!
Create some memories before too late......
WUWU!!
I really miss you so much!!!
Must always contact me ah**
sek sai lei ya^^
MUACKX@!!!

没药医的家伙!!

2010-05-27T06:07:00.000-07:00

真的非常难过.......
看见家变成这样.......
虽然平时都可以躲在学校直到5点......
可是每当回到家门口.......
那无谓的恐惧感又渐渐逼近了.......

我家来了两位远房亲戚......
从中国下来的......
不是说不欢迎他们的到来......
可是.....
突然间家里多了两个陌生人......
实在不是滋味.....
我的活动范围好像缩小了......
动作变得很不自然.....
连坐在沙发上都觉得是不应该的......
要坐就战战兢兢......
不要坐就找个空档一点的位置....
坐在地上......
从来没有试过在自己的家这么客气过.......
连吃饭都得请这请那的.......
太不自在了!!!
我好不习惯哦!!!!
天啊.......
他们还得住上一个月呢!!!!1

话说回来.....
不止这样......
我哥连同他心爱的人也一同住进这个小房子.....
现在我家共有9个成员.....
一夜之间.......
我家变得水塞不通了.....
太可怕了......
现在家里开支真的很大.....
尤其是家里养的......
真的都是名副其实的懒惰虫......

我哥.....
我对他真的非常失望!!
在家无所事事.....
说他是大学生吗????
还是毕了业的大学生吗???
我怎么都无法相信??
他呆在家......
只会上网......玩牌......吃,喝,拉,睡之外......
专长就是出街玩至凌晨.......
要不是爸妈逼切帮他找工作的话.....
我看......
他下半辈子.......都不需要动了!!
可是不管外人怎么努力地帮助他.......
若是自己没有那个毅力和行动的话。。。。。。
那么单靠别人。。。。。
怎么可能有出头天呢！！？？

我不望他能够赚大钱。。。。。。
只希望他能静下狂野的贪玩心。。。。
静静地思考。。。
到底自己有什么人生目标。。。。。
我希望他能做我的榜样！！！！
我要让它成为我的骄傲。。。。。
只是这么简单的愿望。。。。。
我哥。。。。。
你能办得到吗/？？？？

其实做人。。。。。。
最重要是那骨气和感恩心。。。。。。
骨气你已经渐渐输掉了。。。。。。
但是那感恩的心可千万别丢掉。。。。
爸妈这么辛苦供你读大学。。。。。。
也只希望你能找一份稳定的工作。。。。。
赚一些钱。。。。。
帮补一下我们这狼狈的家庭。。。。。。
9个人。。。。。
真的不能维持很久了。。。。。
你要争气一点。。。。。
以后清粥稀饭还是三菜一汤就靠你了。。。。。

我也许下承诺。。。。。。
我会努力读书。。。。。
将来对这头家付上幼女该负的责任！！！！

隔了这么久.....又是一番新天地!

2010-05-19T05:45:00.000-07:00

太久了.......
本来想说算了吧.....让它过去吧!
可是周围不时有人在提醒着我......
关心我的私事.....
关心我的生活点滴.......
令我不禁我不再重出江湖......
把埋藏在心底已久的写作火焰在一次狠狠地燃烧起来!
现在......我有欲望了!
我要继续让周围的人感受到我的存在.......
别让它停止吧!!!

5月1日晴 10.48早晨

今天是劳动节。。。。。。。。
但是身为上班族的我却没有假期。。。。。反而得工作。。。。。真惨！！

他离开了。。。。。。
今天早上一踏进 Gold Vision，我就觉得很不对劲。。。。。
感觉上空虚了。。。。。
不自然了。。。。。
平时一进门。。。。。刚出炉的面包香气就已经弥漫整个店了。。。。。。可是今天，。。。。一切都已经不如以往了。。。。。

其实才过了这么的一个月。。。。。。
可是我对这个地方却有着十分深切的感情。。。。。。
我对它并不陌生。。。。。。
反而把它当成是另一个家了////
里面的同事就如我的家人一样。。。。。。互相扶持，互相体谅！
所以今天。。。。。少了这么一个人。。。。。。
我的心情。。。。。。
已经是好不一样了。。。。。

他今天就已经不在了。。。。。。
他得转换一个新环境上班，所以从昨天起。。。。。。。他的脸从未露出长过3秒的微笑。。。。。。
他变得沉默。。。。无精打采。。。。。
就连回答的力气也丢了似的。。。。。。
点头也显得非常吃力。。。。。
虽然即将离开的人不是我。。。。。。
但是我还是能感觉到他的那份沉重与负担。。。。。

虽然一星期前我就已经知道他必须离开了。。。。。。
但是所谓“针不刺进肉不痛”。。。。。。
不舍得的心情就只有在他离开后才爆发出来！
怎么办！！！！！
我真的非常想念他了！！！！！！

今早进到他平时工作的地方。。。。。
清静了许多！
自己在脑海里却浮现了很多他努力干活的影子。。。。。
每次进去那里。。。。。。我们总是会一笑相对。。。。。。
说声 ming ga la ba。。。
可是今早却不能这样了。。。。。
好想说出来给自己听。。。。
但是却又害怕自己接受不了没回音的那一刻。。。。。
所以话到了嘴边。。。。。。我就狠狠把它给吞回下出了。。。。。
心想。。。。。。还是算了吧！！

过后。。。。我拿出了平时用来装面包的盘子。。。。。
把弄好的蛋挞摆上去。。。。。。
站在那个位置。。。。。。
我把自己当成是他了。。。。。。
因为他常常会在做面包的时候。。。。。。
把目光投射在窗口外面。。。。。。
看一看店里的情况。。。。。。
这种心情。。。。。
我顿时很想也感受一下。。。。。。。

哇！！！
原来从厨房望出窗外是那么的美呀！！
一切都很宁静。。。。。。
好像浮在海面上。。。。。
什么杂音也听不见。。。。。。。
很和平的景色。。。。。
难怪啦。。。。。。
用这样的心情做面包。。。。。。
肯定会“物似主人心啦！”
好吃好吃！！！

Herm...
现在这种时候。。。。。要我笑。。。。真的很难！
一想到以后可能再也没有机会见面了，
我就很想流泪。。。。。
但是！
眼泪却宣泄不出来。。。。。。

我记得他说过。。。。
别哭！！！
因为哭是没用的。。。。。
哭了过后事情还是不会解决的。。。。。。
所以千万别哭！！！
现在想起。。。。。。
更难过的是。。。。。。
他临走前教我说的最后一句缅甸话就是。。。。。“别哭！”
太可悲了。。。。。。。

Haih,,,
平时有他最热闹了！！
因为至少不会少了面包烘焙机，冰厨，微波炉的声音。。。。。。
厨房也不会像现在一样。。。。。
一片寂静。。。。。。

Erm.......
我有一个疑问。。。。。。
认识比较想念常常令你开怀大笑的人还是让你常常为他流泪的人呢？？

我想如果是我的话。。。。。。
我会选择让我怀念起他的时候是笑着的人吧。。。。。。。
因为笑才是件值得纪念的是啊！！！
难怪我会这么想念他！！

5月19日晴 9.35pm
现在已经开始校园生活了。。。。。。。
读三德这件算得上是名校的中学。。。。。。
已经感到非常荣欣了。。。。。
到目前为止。。。。。
我对母校还是念念不忘。。。。
话虽如此。。。。。
可是我也渐渐入乡随俗了。。。。。
**三德**
我会好好地和你相处融洽的！！！

三德校歌。。。。。
还是半桶水！！
哈哈！！

伟哉三德锡立西城 XXXX
朗朗书声 XXXX 精益求精
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haha.......
完全没有印象了。。。。
BLEK**
没关系！！
我会慢慢上口的！！！
等着瞧吧！！！！！

何谓三德？？？
1）信 Faith
2）望 Hope
3）爱 Love

闷死了~~~

2010-03-21T19:02:00.000-07:00

I'm holding M16?? unbelievable....haha!

What's a boring and dull life i am going through now.......
Everyday doing the same thing.......
the same routine**
HERM~~
staying at home......resting.....reading.......doing house chores......eating....
all the time.......
while others are all out for work^^
I'm unwanted......
WUWU~~
My parents forbid me to go and find a job.......
problems are.....
1)no transport
2)stay at home to be a maid
3)find tuitions and start preparing for form 6

WUWU~~~~~~~~

life like this..........
makes me starting to miss my KEM SEGARI..........
all sort of activities i can carry on there......
1)TTS.....kononnya....(tidur tempat sendiri...haha),but it's like
taekwando.....taught us self-defence.....good for everyone!
2)Flying-fox.....turn to be SUPERWOMAN!! flying in the air....hehe
3)Wirajaya.....Stay in the forest for 1 night.....cook in the jungle and carry a 20
kg bag.......Tiring but SYOK!!!!!
4)CB class.....(Character's Building....Interaktif!! woohu.....The best class EveR)
5)Integrasi class.....(taught us about budaya,tradisi,peranan lelaki dan perempuan)
6)Kenegaraan class.....(taught us about taat setia....berbakti untuk negara)
7)Pertandingan Kawad.....(Charlie Won The first place!! YEAH**)
8)Pertandingan antara pelantun terbaik.....(Dimenangi oleh Kumpulan Charlie
juga...haha)
9)Pertandingan Volleyball.....(Charlie was again the champion for both
wira&wirawati...AHA)
10)Pertandingan Netball.....(Charlie Won Again!!~~WOOHU))
11)Pertandingan Tarik Tali......(Alpha wirawati and Delta wira won......)
12)Shooting time....I got 10 upon 100 marks......(CHA!! haha)
but the highest among wirawati was 51 marks from kompeni BRAVO and the highest
among wira was 73 marks from kompeni CHARLIE.....
Again Charlie......So happy^^ proud of all my teamates!
they did the best in KEM~!!
WOOHU**

and what is more....>??
Charlie turned to be the best kompeni among the others......
We got 3 big trophies!!!!
and certificates.......
feeling on top of the world at that time~~
herm.....
and now when i reminisce back.......
i cant forget anything there..........
too much to say about them......
i remember!!
on 10th of march......
friends from KL,selangor and some from IPOH were about to leave.......
i saw them sitting in the bus......
waving to the rest standing a few metres away from the bus......
my heart sank to the bottom.......
when the bus driver started the engine.......
the noise made me dropped my tears.......
then i received a call from my friend in the bus/.....
he persuaded me not to cry......
he saw me in that instant......
then i turned over my face.......
sobbing......
i saw everyone crying too......
it's very difficult for us to send them home with smiles on our faces......
because maybe we would not have the chance to meet and stay together under a big family.....
and because we were left behind and had to stay in the kem for one more day.....
when we went back to our dormitory......
a different scene we had seen.......
empty beds with no one there.....
laughters has gone.....
the crowd has gone too.......
not a single of us was feeling great......
that morning was sorrow.......
and DARK>>.........
my dormitory had only 6 people left while before that we got 24 in it......
haih.......
i kept on crying in the bed.......
looking at those empty beds........
and inbox that was nearly full......
they were all sms-ing to say goodbye to me......
Yea!~
That's the only way that they could console me.......
My neighbours in dorm.......
the two of them had written down a letter for me........
i was so glad that they all love me as a friend.......
unfortunately......they are both from KL.......
We cant meet often......
but we wont stop contacting each other......
i know we would meet again at somewhere else......I hope and i beg the hope comes true^^
27th of march is the first day for kumpulan 2 siri 7 to go and register at stadium indera mulia.....
I have promised to visit cikgu ngah at there......whom i call "mr.potato"
haha......
i remember that night......
when angel was colouring the clothe for decoration on our graduation night.....
i came in and accompanied her.....
there were a lot of teachers resting and chatting......
got cikgu KC......cikgu Wani.....cikgu Wan.....cikgu Roy......cikgu Ngah!!! haha........
i was being forced by cikgu roy and cikgu wan to sing a song......
we were all laughing and teasing each other.......(in proper manner certainly)....haha
when i saw cikgu ngah came in......
i shouted
"cikgu......saya nak potato sikit...."
haha.......
his face turned red a little.....
then he acted like very angry......
he picked up a brush and decided to draw something on my face......
but i ran.....
and he kept running after me.........
at last......
i surrendered......
and he drawed beard and moustache on me........
wahaha!!!
then cikgu roy took a picture of me.....
luckily the water colour could be wiped off easily....
if not,.....
i would have to go back with this silly face......
HAHA~~
Herm.....Really miss all of them........
I am going to visit the kem again next time......
i hope they would still welcome and remember me.....
a silly and cheerful girl......called SUNSILK

Back here and Back ThEre...........

2010-02-15T19:52:00.000-08:00

5 days have gone and past like a rocket.........
Time flies when we are having fun......wuwu!
i need to go back by today's 5pm........
Herm........
what to do??
Although i would miss here so so much.........
i am still looking forward to go back.........
because i would learn M16(Riffle) starting form tomorrow..........!!~~
SYOK~~wahaha

erm........
life there is simple i think..........
because everyday we are repeating the same routine......
the time has been mixed..........
the punishments also........
dihukum pakai full loreng...........
haha......tak kira apa jua situasi pun......~~
the most fun of the day is masa riadah!!
because at that time,.....we can do whatever we want!
no matter jogging......playing badminton,playing basketball,playing volleyball,football and so on........
we can also find a place to sit down and relax......(if tak ada jurulatih caught us lah)....haha
but i wont want to sit down and relax......
because i want to lose weight!
wahaha.......
everyday run with angel during riadah........
is the most fun activity.......
we always jog and sing the band song at the same time......
haha.......
or marching............~~!!
woo~!!
so miss her right now tim~
nvm .............
later i would go to her house......haha**
she kissed me on the last day when we were about to go back home.......
so romantic.........
wahaha~
when would i be kissed by the moon leh??
wondering..........
UEK!!
wanna muntah........
haha~

erm.......
i am not as famous as what angel has said in her blog.......
just that i am quite noisy.....and people used to talk to me jek......
haha!!
nothing else much.........
UEK!~~
oh ya!!
the sky there at night is amazing!!
a lot of stars......and also moon!
hehe.....
i saw once........
an orange MOON!
what's a big strange~!!!
beautiful and attractive......
haha~
angel lied on my legs to see the sky and so did i......i lied on the one behind me!
hehe./......
every night i will be doing the same thing.........
look at the beautiful sky and say to myself......
nipple to the moon and stars.........
hehe^^
SYOKING>>>>>
hope to bring the sky back to ipoh......
so that i can watch and observe it every night........
WOOHU**

herm.......
One more important thing to share!
that is/.......
the people are all very kind and friendly.........
i like to play with the jurulatih there.......
they are very funny and humourous people.......
haha!
Cikgu wan......i call him cikgu Bocor Bocor.......and so does he......
he calls me bocor bocor because of a song.......
when i first got to know that song......
i learned dancing from some malay girls......
maybe that time i looked funny with my movements??
so that teacher started to call me bocor bocor......haha
and one more.........
Cikgu Roy........
he imitates my laughters.......
he said my laughters macam terpaksa ketawa......
wahaha!
so funny man.......~~
Where got!@@
i am ikhlas de......hehe

oh ya^
some jurulatih there will paksa you to eat de oh..........
when i dont have appetite......
i dont want to take the food.......
but the jurulatih would get angry and turn the table over de......!
so scary.......
it had happened once to the other team of girls.......
so next time when i saw that teacher.........
i would hide myself at the place where we wash our plates..........and keep quiet!!
haha~

herm......
when i have come back from NS.........
i think i really did grow up!
i know why minister of Malaysia needs to melaung-laungkan konsep "satu malaysia"!
because it's very important to bersatu-padu and bercampur kaum......
we are living in malaysia......
must do our parts lah.........
every religion must respect each others........
i have learned many things from the others who are practising different cultures.....
i have learned character-building and kelas integrasi at there........
and now......
we are having kelas kenegaraan......
teaching how to respect and to be faithful to our own country.......
It's good to learn all that.........
because when we understand everyone of different religions around us........
we would enlarge our small minds........
we would have the chance to induce good ideas from the people around us........
they think the way that we couldn't think of...........
so we can all share our buah fikiran......
and that wiil forge our relationship.........!!
woohu**
Satu tekad/...satu semangat......SATU MALAYSIA!!
dont be afraid of getting close with others.........
we should appreciate their presence.......
without them........
we are not MALAYSIANS>........~~
Thank God for giving me a chance to be a better man.......
get into PLKN........
Isn't that bad.........
i now........
upsetting........
for hatred PLKN last time......
when i first got to know that i have been chosen for PLKN.......
i was complaining!!
however...........
now it's different.......
the feelings of hatred has gone........
in fact...........
i am starting to love it**
haha~
so for siri 7 kumpulan 2 dan 3 yang bakal masuk PLKN..........
janganlah berase GERAMJIl..........
kerana inilah masa untuk kamu semua belajar dan hilangkan personaliti sendiri yang kurang baik........
Mengapa??
kerana PLKN perlukan disiplin yang EXCELLENT!
kalau tidak............
FAHAM FAHAM~!~
haha//////

WOoHU**
finally updated my blog........
macam sangat bersemangat tim!!!
but die loh.........
when i get back.......
i need to join pertandingan perbahasan!
Sei ler.....^^
Save ME~!!!!
HeRm..........

中西合拼!

2009-12-26T07:32:00.000-08:00

Graduated.......

2009-12-24T09:41:00.000-08:00

Herm.....
The day has come that fast......
i have never been reaDY to accept that yet.....
although i have retired for 3 days now.....
i still cant get used of the situation......
Oh GosH@!!!
我毕业了!!!!!!
怎么办`???
我真的毕业了`!!!
haih......
时间过得真是快!!!!
以前当看着 seniors 一年一年地送走......'
我心中还在想着....."幸好我还有时间......"
结果这句话......我今年已经不能再使用了......
我 form 5 了`!~
老了......
今年是被送走的那个!!!
Herm......
SAD>>>>>~~
What to do??
I cant help to stop all this........
WUWU****(*
Why!~!!1
2009......
AMC did concert........
I couldn't involve in formation.......
Totally gone MAD~!!!
herm........
i want to enter the stadium perak with band uniform.......
SMART and Tidy......
March in with pride..........
Play excellent music..........
Stare at those'yeong shui" people.......
Cry for either our success or failure.......
hug each other.......
capture photos with instruments and broad smile on everyone's face.......
sing and rest in the bus while heading back to the school.....
go yum cha with friends after that........
I miss all these!!!!!
but things didn't turn up in this way.......
i missed all this.........
if i were form 4 this year........
my dream and hope would come true!!!!!!!!
HAIH............
遗憾.......
一辈子的抱怨......
Tell me why!!!!!
i dont want to hold a tambourine in Putrajaya International Convension Centre!
i want to carry my bass drum and march on the feild of stadium Perak!!
herm!!!!!!
why i cant get what i want^??
why just imagination???
why it's just a beautiful nightmare??
haih.............

Herm...........
passing out camp....
4 days 3 nights in the school plus KL.......
EnjoyED!!
but needed to follow rules..........
"cant use HP while camping"
ISH~!!!!
It spoilt my mood a little.....HEM%%
NVM.........
It's over,
not even a single chance to keep my hp in band camp anymore......
So.......
i miss it.......

Thinking and Recalling the days in band......
full of misteries......happiness,sadness,laugthers,salah faham....and so on~~
Bitter,sour,sweet and salty.......
Bitter in the way that we suffer from practice,train under the hot sun....argueing? and scolding??
sour in the way that we jealous about other bands.....their success? their teamwork??
sweet in the way that we put up a good show,enjoy camping together,talking and gossiping......
salty in the way that we have to listen to those soporific stories....haha(they are good for us though)
herm.....so many things had happened.....
making fun of and fooling us.........
sometimes they might knock us down.......
but AMC band spirit never dies!
we must Stand up and prove!!!
**GambAtEh**

Back to Percussion.....
Thank you so much for what you guys have done for the Form 5 ya!!
The cup..........
OH NO~~!!!
I love it so much~~!!!
It indicates my growth in the band........
WOOHU****
you guys really good in choosing present and decorating lah!!
haha........
THANKS!!!
Allow me to do this..........MUACKX~!!!
I love all of you ya^^
Although some of you have some problems regarding something that's not improtant or maybe should be claimed as "salah faham"?
Herm.....
But finally we solve it!!
Nothing's gonna change our friendship!!
we forge our relationship......
I hope we can always feel the great and the pain together.......
手牵手.....一起走到永久!!
Percussion++ .....USH!!!!!!!!!

一个理由，万种情。。。。

2009-12-18T07:45:00.000-08:00

爱一个人。。。。。
我只有一个理由。。。。。
那就是因为。。。。。。
我爱他~

爱一个人。。。。。。
有千万种情意。。。。。
每个人对于每一段爱情都有不一样的感受。。。。。。
情感多。。。。。。
思意重。。。。。
每天说一百遍的“我爱你”。。。。。。
也胜不过一个可爱的动作。。。。。
可爱地笑。。。。。。
可爱地哭。。。。。。
可爱地打闹。。。。。
可爱地说话。。。。。。
可爱地睡觉。。。。。
连可爱地沉默也可以令一个人傻笑了一整天。。。。。。。
这样的相处。。。。。。
这样的距离。。。。。。
多好！

人与人之间。。。。。
无论是什么关系。。。。。。
都应该保有一点距离。。。。。
距离里面。。。。。
包括私人空间，私事，自由以及个性。。。。。。
守护了这些。。。。。。
就等于保留了自己。。。。。。
也等于能与别人分享自己的点滴。。。。。
这样舒服的距离。。。。。
好棒哦！！

谁说要在一起。。。。。才能幸福快乐？？
谁说物以类聚。。。。人一定要以群分呢？？
不一定志趣相同才能相处融切吧？
我和他。。。。。。就是与众不同。。。。。
我们没在一起。。。。。。
我们很少时间相处。。。。。。
我们不爱说情话。。。。。
我们很少有共同的嗜好。。。。。
我们很少正视对方双眼。。。。。。
我们没太多话题。。。。。。
但是。。。。。。
金露一相逢，便胜人间无数。。。。。
我们都很把握现在。。。。。
因为还有更多的未来正等着我们去找寻。。。。。。
还有无数个明天等待我们一起度过。。。。。
我不想浪费掉。。。。。。
因为如果我没能力珍惜当下。。。。。。
我就没办法实践明天的承诺了~~

可能现在的我们遇到了一些障碍。。。。。。
阻挡着我们前进。。。。。。
但是原地踏步不是更能够欣赏到我们四周围美丽的风景吗？
有时候跑得太快。。。。。
错失了优美的景色不是更让人难受吗？？
所以现在只要手牵着手。。。。。。
站在原地。。。。。
眺望着世外桃源就好了。。。。。。
不用执著。。。。。
只要珍惜便足够了。。。。
现在正努力建立只属于我们的回忆。。。。。
以后把它们统统储蓄起来。。。。。
那么我们将会变成世界上最富有的“傻瓜”

能活在小朋友的世界。。。。多好！

2009-12-12T10:25:00.000-08:00

当习惯变成贪心。。。。

2009-12-12T08:43:00.000-08:00

有些事一旦你习惯了。。。。。。就很难改变！
习惯后。。。。。
你又会变得很贪心。。。。
贪比目前更好的。。。。。
贪比以前出色的。。。。
因为当习惯了以后。。。。。
你就会渐渐发现。。。。。
其实自己现在拥有的。。。。。都不是最好的！

我觉得我变贪心了///
可能是因为我习惯了//。。？
我习惯用问号。。。。。
我习惯吃白面包搽花生酱。。。。。
我习惯打简讯不看着电话。。。。。
我习惯叫朋友傻婆八婆。。。
我习惯用手巾擦汗。。。。。
我习惯睡在地上。。。。。
我习惯吃饭不用碗。。。。。
我习惯吃饱饭站着看电视。。。。。
我习惯听着电台睡觉。。。。。
我。。。。。。。
习惯去爱一个人。。。。。。
但是。。。。。。。
习惯令我变的贪心/。，，，，
说真的。。。。。
我只能怪自己。。。。。
我不想去计较。。。。。。
只想真心对待每一件事。。。。。
可是回报的代价实在是太大了。。。。。
我付不起。。。。。
多希望能变回以前那样。。。。。
只要小快乐。。。。。
就满足了。。。。。
现在我拥有了小快乐。。。。。
却想追求更大的快乐。。。。。
我到底怎么了？！
为何会变得如此贪得无厌？
哀莫过于不自足。。。。。。
因为拥有了贪心。。。。。。
所以现在连一丁点的快乐都消失了！

我偶尔发现。。。。。
我好寂寞。。。。。
我不知道该与谁分享我的秘密。。。。。。。
那感觉就好像。。。。。
我没有朋友一样。。。。。
现在想想。。。。。。
我的朋友只能和我分享喜悦和感动。。。。。
却不能与我分享哀愁与寂寞。。。。。。
像我这样幼稚的人。。。。。
我还能奢望有谁能够帮我度过悲伤？？
现在我能乞求的。。。。。。
就是让我掉眼泪。。。。。
让眼泪陪着我。。。。。
即使它不会说话。。。。。。
不会安慰我。。。。。
尽管它不会甜言蜜语。。。。。
我还是依然这么依靠它。~
因为。。。。。。
眼泪可以使我坚强！

安全感......

2009-12-08T06:36:00.000-08:00

最近我失去了一些东西`......
时间`?
朋友?
快乐??
感动`??
原来那是我的安全感......

保护着我的安全感没了.....
就连我的自信心也跟其一起失去了。。。。。。
过着这一般的生活。。。。
我觉得很没有安全感。。。。。。
像是不了解自己一样。。。。。
我想要的。。。。。。
我开不了口。。。。
我所拥有的。。。。。
我一直防范。。。。。
我害怕失去的难过。。。。。。
我宁愿放弃拥有权。。。。。
也不愿意让他从此消失！
为的只是想保护我正要流泪的心。。。。。

快了。。。。。。
我就快失去某些东西了。。。。。
有时候我不想谈。。。。。
不想想。。。。。
不想问？
不想理。。。。
但是事实摆在眼前。。。。。。
怎么办？？
当事实逼近时。。。。
我回头想要回避。。。。。。
但是后面迎面而来的却是。。。。。。
*自责心*
我自责自己不够勇敢。。。。
我生气自己不够坦白。。。。。
HERM>>>>........

安全感是我的保护层。。。。。
当它随着水蒸气蒸发在空气中时。。。。。
外面的燃料就会刺进我的心。。。。。
现在这种感觉。。。我感受到了！
我现在无能为力。。。。。
只能听天由命！
做垂死的挣扎。。。。。

当安全感消失了。。。。
我没有能力保护我自己。。。。。
受伤之际。。。。。。
我懂得从困难中呼吸。。。。。。
我懂得从恨中找爱。。。。。
因为我知道。。。。。
爱因为在心中。。。。。

Everything goes blank........

2009-11-25T06:00:00.000-08:00

HERM>>!!!!
Filthy Angry.........
SPM is annoying.......
Everytime when i get into the hall and take a seat.........
my eyes are pain........
my brain is blank.....
my hands are sweating.........
WUWU!!!!!
So much fear SPM has brought me........
No matter how i do........
I feel as if i have nothing done!
ISH.........
7 subjects have been tested......
4 more........
Bio
Physics
Chemistry
BC........
I'm Scared of every single one......
Pressure all around.......

but.......
i really cant sit still and study like maD!
this will take away my life........
LIMQINSHI~~
GAMBATEH!!
Impossible is Nothing......~
Sendiri got something.........
SHOW IT......
Prove IT.........
Get Used of it.........
Own IT..........
JIa YOU* ba..........
Countdown.........
the end......14.12.2009

14.12.2009
- 25.11.2009
--------------
Infinity
--------------

You see..........
Dont know how to count pula........
no wonder add maths like seketul of Sh*t.........
WUWUWUWUWUWUWU~!!!!!!

我好想你。。。。。

2009-11-12T15:06:00.000-08:00

寂寞。。。。。
谁会陪在我身边。。。。。。。。。？？
下过一场大雨后。。。。。
好像催眠了我。。。。。
我醒不来了。。。。
昨晚睡了好久，，，，，
好想与世隔绝了。。。。。
我好想念他。。。。。。
说过不入睡的。。。。。。
为什么偏偏等不及他的一切。。。。。。
夜深了。。。。。。
寂寞变更长了。。。。。。
就连做梦也觉得很受伤。。。。。。
你到底去了哪？？？
我好想拥抱你。。。。。
把寂寞赶走。。。。。
感受着你的温暖。。。。。
虽然不真实。。。。。。
但是。。。。。。
我不能在承受了！！！
等到有一天。。。。。
如果我疯了。。。。。
请你原谅我。。。。。。。~

没有温度依靠........

2009-11-01T04:30:00.000-08:00

人嘛!!!
37度摄氏......
有温度........
好依靠........
可是有些冷血的人类.......
冰得令人冻结........
坏得令人反感!
为什么总会有这种人啊？？
因为他们内心没有澎湃的血脉。。。。
也没有爱。。。。。

有些人喜欢依靠别人。。。。。
可是有些人却喜欢依靠物品。。。。。
我呢？？
当然比较喜欢依靠他人。。。。。
有温度的倚靠/。。。。。
又熟悉的味道。。。。。。。
会有安慰。。。。。
会有我想要的。。。。。一切！
当我难过的时候。。。。
我喜欢有人陪着我。。。。。
逗我开心。。。。。
哄我安慰我。。。。
因为我不喜欢孤单一人！
寂寞。。。。。
好可怕！
它能杀害我的神经细胞！
毒害我的笨脑袋。。。。
只要一想到。。。“安静”
我就好讨厌！
有人说我是超级 EMO 王！
一丁点小事就会不开心。。。。。
其实。。。。。
他们可能不了解。。。。。
我已经习惯呆在他们身边了。。。。

他们可以依靠........

他们不是非生物........

可是有时候,他们给我的却不是热情的回应!
所以不 EMO 的话。。。。。
我已没事可干了！
对不起。。。。。。
没办法。。。。。
我只是纯粹喜欢赖着你们。。。。。
你们给我有温度的依靠。。。。。。
令我尝尽了温暖。。。。。。
谢谢！！！

有些人却不一样。。。。
他们喜欢依靠的是冷冰冰的非生物.......
可能他们没有能依靠的对象~~
他们睡不着时不会找人谈心事。。。。。
他们靠的是安眠药。。。。。。
他们不开心时。。。。想的不是朋友或亲人。。。。
而是啤酒与香烟。。。。。
这种人/。。。。。
让我觉得他们很可悲。。。。。

没有朋友.....

就没有温暖......

这样下去......

37度摄氏的体温也会冷却......

微动的血脉也会止住......

因为没了温度........

就连冰.......

也不能生存了!

最自然的不自然。。。。。

2009-10-30T17:18:00.001-07:00

standard deviation=npq
mean=np
mun yee and me....
WOW!!!!!!! who is she?? haha
haha.......ada penyakit......jauhilah saya!

I wAnNa Go OUT!!!!!! WUWU>>>>

comfortable......

Alzheimer's disease.....haha

眼泪。。。是我的化妆品！

2009-10-25T04:57:00.000-07:00

就当全世界的人都讨厌你的时候，就唯独我不会！
因为如果没有你。。。。我的哀与悲该如何释怀呢？

眼泪是我的化妆品。。。。。
每次当我哭完后。。。
洗个脸。。。。。
想一想究竟为了什么而狂掉眼泪后，
思绪整理后再把缠绕我的问题解决掉，然后开心了。。。。
变美了！
现在我了解。。。。
原来流过眼泪的人才会懂得笑的!
哭泣后的笑脸才是最美的！
眼泪在我的脸上彩上的妆比笑沾上脸的样子。。。。
增添了多一份的自然。。。。。
所以我感谢眼泪。。。。。
感谢你滋润了我的脸。。。。！！

我爱哭。。。。
因为哭了后才会快乐啊！！
但有人却否定了我。。。。。
他们说。。。。。
哭来有什么用！。。。。哭完后问题会解决掉吗？？
可是至少有眼泪的陪伴。。。。
让我不会孤单一个人去面对问题。。。。。
至少留下的热泪能带给我一丝丝有温度的依靠！

我要感谢眼泪。。。。。
因为你从我眼睛流下来后。。。。。
就把我的难过与生气也一起带走了。。。。。
从脸滑下来的瞬间。。。。
虽然短暂。。。。
但却诉说了我心中的千言万语。。。。。
把你擦干后。。。。。
告诉自己。。。。
“雨后会出现彩虹的！”
所以哭泣后。。。。。笑脸也一定会出现的！！
只要好好地享受流泪。。。。。
好好地哭泣。。。。。
只要那么一次真诚而又轰轰烈烈地飙一次泪。。。。。。
难过一定会消失的！！
然后笑脸也会出现的。。。。。
请相信自己留下的眼泪。。。。。。

眼泪啊！！
假如有一天你干枯了。。。。
那我该怎么办？？
如果你不能再为我上妆。。。。。。
不能再滋润我的脸。。。。。
那我心中的话。。。。。。
该如何诉说出来呢？？？
我又该怎样笑呢？？
所以请你别离开我。。。。
待在我身边吧！！！

你的微笑。。。是我的止痛药！

2009-10-16T18:32:00.001-07:00

你知道吗？？
你的笑。。。。。。。。
哪怕只是嘴角扬起的微笑，还是像喘息般的哈哈大笑都是可以帮我止痛的 penadol !

通常难得的东西总是珍贵的！
你的笑也一样。。。。。。
你不常笑。。。。
可能是你都是一个人的关系。。。。。。
像你这样。。。。。
寂寞+++++++独来独往的小孩。。。。。。
笑。。。。。。可能是你不曾奢侈过的艺术品。。。。。

笑。。。。确实是一种艺术品！~
也是快乐的产品。。。。。。。。。
但是有些人却会把笑当成伪装品。。。。。
假装快乐。。。。。
假装在笑。。。。。
有些人又会把笑当成收藏品。。。。。
偷偷笑着。。。。。
遮遮掩掩地。。。。。
这样的笑。。。。。。
算是。。。。。。。笑吗？？？

我不晓得。。。。。
你可能是这些人的一分子。。。。
所以你的笑脸。。。。。
我都很难看得见。。。。。
所以。。。。。。。。。珍贵！
更让我。。。。。。珍惜！

你的笑。。。很天真！
就像小时候被百般呵护时的笑容。。。。
那么的温柔。。。。那么的可爱！
你自己可能不知道。。。。。。。
原来。。。。。
你的笑。。。。。。
包含了这么多感动。。。。。
淌着血的心也能停止难过。。。。。
窒息的瞬间也能重获氧气/。。。。。
夸张吗？？
可是却跟比喻成真比。。。。。

有时候当你遇到难过的事时。。。。。
除了哭泣流泪。。。。。
请不要吝啬给自己一个苦涩的笑容。。。。。
因为你永远都不会知道。。。。
谁会喜欢上你当下的笑脸。。。。。
哪怕那只是苦笑。。。。。
我就是喜欢上了！！

但是你的笑常常都会因为我而消失。。。。。。
我不快乐。。。。。
你也不会愉快。。。。。
有时候我会想。。。
这样好吗？？
现在我有了答案。。。。

我愿意为你笑。。。。。
只要我不难过。。。。。
你就会笑吗/？？
如果是这样。。。。。
我会用我的笑容让你知道。。。。。
其实。。。。。。
你的笑是我的止痛药。。。。。。
请你多笑吧。。。。。
那么我就不会痛了......

WoOhu.>>>SuShI Plus BowLinG Day./.~~SYOOK!!!!

2009-10-09T18:06:00.000-07:00

Ah Yang,me and Xiau wei

PicTure in A fRame........haha

HaPpY DAY>>~~

Ah Yang PLayIng.........WooHU**

SuPER mOdel........haha

The EntIre............RomBonGan ke PARADE! haha

WUWU............Not EnOuGh HeiGhT^^

PleAse Wait To Be SeaTed,,,,,,waHaHa~~

Mun YeE aND XiaU wEi.....

Do I look ALike It>>?wahaha

RoLL DOWN!!!!!

There are more funny pictures

of SHO PO's'

ToDay's SpeCial............BiRthDay PrincESS!!! haha

Look At XiaU Wei's fAce........She Tak Mau Makan Lah!! haha

SomEone is Day-dReaming to Be Feeded! haha

TheRe are Two Balls........one enormous.....one tiny! haha

CHEESE~~~~~

To EnlarGe......PleaSe DoubLE CliCk.......

2009-10-09T17:59:00.000-07:00

There's a word........calLeD....."best"

2009-10-03T01:22:00.000-07:00

Perhaps someone may say................
"Best"...............has just one!
But for me.............
"BEST" is more than just itself.............

There's many things...>>"BEST" around us......
My "best" friend........my "best" buddy..........
the "best" food...........the "best movie"
eVerything...............
but........
With the word "best"~~
it's not sufficient to describe all of them........
FOr me...........
"best" can have a lot..........

for example........"my best friend...........
it shouldn't have just one!!
i got many "best" friends...........
They are kind and friendly...........
i like them a lot............
if i were forced to choose the best among them.........
SORRY^^
I couldn't.......
they are just the same...........FOR ME~~
that's what in my mind..........

ERM>>?
however..........
there is exception..........
my "best" soul mate...............plus lover..............
HAve ONLY ONE!!!!!!!

Things that i did during the long long long and damn boring EXAM!!!!!!

2009-10-02T23:50:00.000-07:00

2009-09-23T08:56:00.000-07:00

爱虽伤........但却灿!

2009-09-23T07:27:00.000-07:00

有人说.......
情场如战场!
也有人说.......
男人是花心大罗卜.........
女人是变脸大花痴..........
结婚是爱情的坟墓........等等!
我........
不肯定.......
我是赞成.........还是反对??
难道保持中立会比较好吗??
怎么办??
我没有答案............

我.......
不肯定........
我有没有爱上一个人..........
我爱他吗???
有吗??
难道我不爱他???
是吗???
我不知道...........]
情场如战场.........
应该是吧???
因为.........我尝到了!
如果我爱他.......
情场如战场的定义是........
我受伤了........
好伤好伤~~~
每一次....
等待.....令我苦不堪言!
猜不透........令我雪上加霜!
沉默............令我生不如死......~!!
怎么样???
我只是个平凡的女生.........
我只是和平常一般天真无邪的女生一样..........
我只渴望能谈一场普通的恋爱.........
不能轰轰烈烈.....也罢.....
至少不会偷偷摸摸就好了.........

(绝代商娇)
-你为什么整天都不把你内心的话说出来?? 重要的你不说,不重要的你却一直讲一直讲,你到底有没有顾及我的感受的?? 我只不过是一个平凡的女生,我只想好好地谈恋爱,有这么难吗?? 为什么你偏偏就不能对我坦白??

这一句对白深深地埋进了我的脑里.........
没错!!!!
我也一样............
我只想好好爱你...........\
为什么非得给我如此沉重的压力!
我不要打战!!!!!
我不要如此劳累!!!!
我不要只做朋友!
我不要!
我不要!!!!!!!

我。。。。。
不肯定。。。。
男人是花心大罗卜吗???
有谁能讲得清?
有谁能说得明??
我......
告诉你们,,,,,
不完全是...........
因为至少我爱的人一定不是!!!!!

花心???
怎样才算是??
要一脚踏两船吗??
还是只要稍微对其他女生有点心动也算是??
好难定义哦!!!!!!!!

有时候我会问自己/......
HErm??
男人为什么会一脚踏两船？？
是世上女人太多。。。。。。。
还是选择太丰富？？
一个人谈这么多恋爱。。。。。。
不会累吗？？
爱一个人已经有够辛苦了。。。。。。。。
爱两个。。。。三个。。。。。。更多个。。。。。
不会被炸得粉身碎骨吗？？
一个人打这么多次战。。。。。。。
不被刀砍死。。。。。剑刺死。。。。。。水淹死。。。。。。火烧死。。。。。都假啦！
不管我相信。。。。。。
凡事都有因果报应的！！
男人花心。。。。。
等天收吧！

说到女人。。。。。。
好像很不舒服。。。。。、
因为我也是女人叻！！
hErm......
不过我承认
女人善变的脸。。。。。。
永远有划不下的句号～～
女人啊！
变脸为了什么？？？
为了留住男人吗？？
还是是为了自己的自信心？？
我搞不懂。。。。。。
反正我还小。。。。。。
无需对自己的脸作出任何改变。。。。。！！
BLEh*

×请倾听我内心深处的千言万语×
我。。。。。
好渴望得到爱神的眷顾。。。。。。。
我不是花痴。。。。。
我只是痴心。。。。。
我不是发娇。。。。。
我只是发烧。。。。。
烧着爱情的火焰。。。。。。
让爱燃烧着我的心。。。。。。
就算我会活活被烧死。。。。。
我也毫不抗拒！
因为我相信爱。。。。。！

说真的～～
我太会说话。。。。
可是说的却是废话！
我的脑不简单。。。。
但是却一点都不复杂，
有人说。。。。。。
你的脑很笨！
想东西太简单化。。。。。。
可是也有人说。。。。。
你很聪明,.,,,
想的东西令我搞不懂！
所以与其说我猜不透你的心，，，，，
倒不如说我自己也搞不清楚自己在想些什么。。。。。。！！！！！
林秦诗。。。。。。
标准的“人类”

我好累。。。。。。。。

2009-09-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

放假了。。。。！！！
我又在放假吗？？？
好像没有耶！
一直玩。。。。。。
一直吃。。。。。
一直睡。。。。。
一直坐。。。。。
一直走。。。。。
一直疯狂、、、
却没有静一静。。。。
站一站在原地。。。。。。
想一想自己做过的事情。。。。。。。
想一想自己的未来。。。。。。
怎么办？？
我觉得自己好失败。。。。。。
放假、、、、、、、、
人人都想休息，
唯独我～
无法用我的笨脑袋思考。。。。。。。
就连合上双眼的机会我也毫不犹豫地让它流走。。。。。。
我问我自己～～
林秦诗。。。。。。
放假了。。。。。。。
过了几天了。。。。。。。
你到底做了些什么？？？
你玩够了没有？？
你疯足了没有？？
你癫完了没有？？
真难过！
这一些问题。。。。。。
就连我自己也毫无头绪！～～
天啊！！！！
打救我吧！
我不想继续沉迷下去了---
就算全世界的人都觉得我没出息。。。。。。
我也要看得起我自己。。。。。。
就算别人怎么否定我。。。。
我也要取得胜利。！！
就算别人如何质疑我的能力。。。。。。
我也要努力一番!
所谓。。。。。
^^不成功....便成仁!
来来来!!!
林秦诗.....
给我一个胜利的手势吧!!
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!
GAMBatEH^^

遗憾改变不了的，无奈为我改变的~~

2009-08-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

十七年了。。。。。
十七岁了。。。。。
十七个光阴过去了。。。。。
十七回岁月经过了。。。。。
十七轮青春也越过了。。。。。
但却只经历过一次生命。。。。。

活了近十七年的我。。。。。。
有像十七岁的脸吗？？
有像十七岁的身体吗？？
拥有十七岁的头脑吗？？
我想我都没有。。。。。。。。。。

我是不是很没用？？~

拥有十七年回忆的生命。。。。。
很平乏。。。。。
缺少了许多虽然同时也拥有了不少。。。。
可是当生命一而再，再而三地出现选择时，
我却不知道该如何抉择才会得到双赢的局面。。。。。。
有时候我会慌神。。。。。
有时候发呆。。。。
有时候寻求帮助。。。。
有时候就只好听天由命。。。。。

他把我带去那里。。。。。。我就在哪里！

没经过思考与揣摩的选择。。。。。。

造就了现在的我。。。。。。

有时候幸运的话，我可能会选对了！没有留下半点儿遗憾

可是有时候不幸时，留下遗憾不说，还会造成一错再错的局面。。。

活在内疚与无奈里。。。。。一直找不到方向！

改变不了的事实变成了遗憾，住进了我的心~！

为我改变的事物形成了无奈，压抑着我的思绪。。。！~

现在我已经不能为过去了的事作出什么改变了。。。。

所谓“往事只能回味”啊！

只能为它们流半点眼泪，然后就得继续往以后更多的十七年抗战了！

因为时间真得很残忍与无情~

它不会止步。。

它不会放缓。。。

它不会中断。。。。

它更加不会重来。。。

所以人活着就该懂得珍惜。。。。。。

懂得欣赏。。。。

懂得体会。。。。

懂得感受。。。。

懂得争取~~

懂得释怀。。。。。。

懂得把握。。。。。。

懂得这一切。。。。

为了什么？？

为了别让遗憾住进你的心！！！

说真的。。。。时间真的能转眼飞逝！

就这样。。。。。

岁月在我脑上刮下了十七年的痕迹。。。。。。

让我成熟了不少。。。。。也长大了许多！

林秦诗蜕变成了高中少女。。。。。

添加了七情六欲。。。。。

感情世界变丰富了。。。。。

生活也因喜怒哀乐而反复无常。。。。

高潮迭起~〉〉

生命也一度因为失望，悲伤，愤怒等等的杂念穿插进了我的‘太平洋"而感到苦不堪言。。。。。。。

不过这反而令我更加懂得珍惜和争取快乐与安宁 ~

我是你的强心剂，你是我的定心丸！

2009-08-16T04:14:00.000-07:00

２００７年的某一天，
我认识了一个男生。。。。。。
他叫陈伟健～
那时的他，是我的一位朋友的男朋友。。。。。。
虽然没什么交流，
但确实一点好感都没有。。。。。。
我很讨厌他的朋友！
甚至把他也列入黑名单！
现在想想。。。。。。他好像没做错过什么！真抱歉～
以前我都会骂他。。。。
觉得他是假惺惺！说实在的！为什么美婷会喜欢他这个人！
可是等到真正了解他后，才会发现。。。。。
其实他比谁都还要特别。。。。。。
因为他好可爱！

２００８年的某一天。。。。。。。
我对他依旧冷淡。。。
可是却不至于讨厌了。。。。。
我们当上了普通朋友。。。。。
还好！！
只是普通朋友。。。。。不然～
我不能原谅我自己！
２００８年。。。。。。
他依旧是美婷的男朋友。。。。。
这关系维持得不太好吧？？
所以我都不太希望把自己太理会他们的感情。。。。。
因为电影桥段都常有啊！！
女方的好朋友与自己的男朋友如果太熟的话，女方一定会吃醋的，所以我常常没回男方的讯息，只是有时候想请教他英文才找他！
HERM!!!!!!!
我万万没想到！那小子竟然对美婷说我有意无意地好像在利用他！
听了后，我又气又心疼！！
结果我生气了。。。。。。
我忘了我到底有没有解释清楚。。。。。。
但是那时我的确非常不理智！没想到他会这么样地想我。。。。
林秦诗呀！　你真失败！

２００９年的某一天。。。。。
他与美婷分手了。。。。
那时我对他的印象已经是糟透了！
可是当时却涌起了一股力量。。。。。。把我们俩绑在一起，那是红线吗？？
不是！！
那是他的态度。。。。。
他是一个非常有礼貌的家伙。。。。。
一开始。。。————
我以为他只是披着羊皮的狼，没想到他竟然是蚌子里的一颗珍珠。。。。。。
虽然外面的人无法看得见他的好，因为他常常都把自己约束在仅有自己的灰沉世界，
可是意外地，
他让美婷住进了他的心。。。。
虽然那只是个不完美的遗憾。。。。。。
但是至少他懂得欣赏恋爱的滋味。。。。。
结果美婷是第一个发现他是一颗宝贵的珍珠的人。。。。。。
而我。。。。。。却是第二个～

他的确是一个好男孩１
他谦虚，卑微，带有点自信，但却从不骄傲！
他天真，善良，带有点小气，但却没丧失男人风度！
所以我跟他当上了好朋友。。。。。
有利多于弊吗？？
就连我自己也没有答案。。。。。

２００９年的２月９日。。。。（我怎么还能记得？）
那天是我第一次鼓起我已失去好久的勇气，第一次打电话给他，
他的声音不细。。。。但却很小。。。。。。
我常常会听不见。。。。。。
起初我以为。。。。。。他不爱笑！
之后我才发现。。。。。。原来他的笑声。。。。。。真得很小！让我以为他是在喘气！
和他聊天。。。。。。我变成了叽喳婆。。。。。。。虽然与平时没差啦！但是我却很愿意当那个多说话的人。。。。。因为我想让他多笑点，开心点！
我做到了！
他变得开朗了许多！
蚌壳终于慢慢地打开了！
现在。。。。。。我们的关系又升级了！～
我们是哥儿们！是好兄弟。。。。。
这应该是从我的头发说起吧！
话说回来！我的一头短发，再加上豪迈的个性！的确令人家误以为我是 TOM BOY 吧？？
但是我不是！
只是因为是 PERCUSSIONIST，
难免会有点男子气概啦！
所以我们就成了兄弟关系！

２００９年的４月２１日。。。。。（我怎能忘了呢？）
那天是我哥的生日。。。。。
我费了好久时间。。。。。。想为他来点不一样的生日礼物！
因为我都知道。。。。。。他与普通人不一样，钱包，手表，衣服，雕饰品，全都不是他喜欢的。。。。。
所以我送了他一箱饼干，再加上我亲自做的牛油蛋糕！
他曾对我说过；“我家什么都没有，除了父母打包给他吃或是佣人煮饭，我就没东西吃了“
他的确非常可怜。。。。。
常常饿肚子，所以我就送了他饼干。。。。。。
让他不会再饿着肚子。。。。。。。

２００９年６月５日。。。。。。
这一天是我和他第一场看过的电影，也是唯一的一次。。。。。
那天他特别安静。。。。。。
我特别不知所措。。。。。
因为我不知道该如何与他肩并肩地走在一起。。。。。
因为他走路特别快。。。。。
我一直跟紧在后头。。。。。
望着他的背影。。。。。
我笑了。！
因为我知道。。。。。。
他害羞了～～

２００９年８月６日。。。。。。（我更不可能忘记）
他已经几天没于我联络了。。。。。。
我不至于难过。。。。不过无聊一定会有啦！
可是晚上９。０９分，我收到了他的简讯～～
好奇又惊奇的交错。。。。。。
他为我的生日补上了一份非常珍贵的礼物，
他偷偷把它塞进了我家的收信箱。。。。。。
第一次。。。。。。。
第一次！～～
我尝到了他的无比的勇气与诚心。〉。
羞答答的他。。。。。。
令我万万没想到他居然会做出如此浪漫的事。。。。。。
蚌壳完全打开了！
我看见了里面躺着。。。。
正在闪闪发亮的珍珠！
哇！！
好美呀！！！
谢谢你！
陈伟健。。。。。。

我是你的强心剂。。。。。
因为我要让你变得更坚强！好好面对人生。。。。。。
只要征服自己的恐惧。。。。。。你就能征服这世界！

你是我的定心丸。。。。
因为我轻浮孩子气。。。。。
你能让我静下心来。。。。。
想想自己的未来～～

无论是强心剂。。。还是定心丸！
只要互相需要。。。。。互相依赖。。。。
那么————————
我们俩就永远都会是最好的知己！

Let Photos Shout Out mY FeeLinGs

2009-08-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

Drawn by Mai mai+Xiau wei+Yin mei
Edited by "Victim_Lim Qin Shi"

What's a Big Big TremEndous Love! hehe

Message Tersirat--My Name is Inside!

WOw! got a green watch,flower and a

number of RINGS~~haha

AftEr BanD PerFormAnCE`
Beh TAhAn!!!!

^ USH!!! GamBaTeH^

&&Love My WriSt Band So sO MucH&&

The combinatioN of Beauty and The Geek ! haha

Gillian and Me at Marriot Hotel~`

+我的妈妈+

2009-08-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

妈。。。。

我给你五颗星`~~

第一颗___（幸运星）

我愿它能一直跟随在你身边，带给你运气，让你能事事顺心！

第二颗___（平安星）

我愿它能保护着你。。。不让你受到任何伤害！

第三颗___（幸福星）

我愿它能给你带来幸福。。。就像家人带给你的幸福一样！

第四颗___（健康星）

我愿它能赐你健康的身体，让你能远离疾病。。。。

第五颗___（天国星）

这颗是最特别的，我愿它能在你离开人世后带你到永存的天国去。。。。。。让天使能做你的侍从，上帝能看顾你。。。。。家人能在下面望着你。。。。。

妈。。。。

我要送你我的五颗心。。。。。

第一颗___(我的细心）

妈，我答应你。。。。。我会常常关怀你！用我的细心陪着你，让你感受到我的爱！

第二颗___(我的关心）

我会常常都问候你，不让你觉得被忽视。。。。。

第三颗___(我的用心）

我会用心学习，用心听话，用功读书，不让你为我操心！

第四颗___（我的爱心）

虽然不能说是被爸爸欺负，但是你却常常给爸爸冷言冷语地骂，我还小，不能站出来为你平反或是说几句公道话，但是我会让你再被骂时,感到一丝丝的温暖，让你感受到我对你的爱！

第五颗___(我的“珍惜”）

我想对您说:"妈！我真得非常珍惜您！我珍惜您的付出，我珍惜您的照顾，我珍惜你带给我们这个家的一切，有了您！我不再是长不大的孩子了！谢谢您！～～～要身体健康哦！！

有时候我会想。。。如果我不是妈的女儿，她是我的老师，阿姨，或是不认识的路人的话，那我究竟会变成怎么样？？我不敢想象如果我们真的是陌生人的话，事情会变得多复杂！！因为我喜欢她！所以不能没有她！要是把我的记忆也给毁灭，让我把她忘得一干二净的话，至少我还是会说:"我只想当您的女儿！"

你为我们家付出了许多，虽然回报是生出了我们这一群天真无邪的宝宝，我不敢承认我自己是乖宝宝，但起码我没有杀人放火，做出丧尽天良的事，所以也算是乖孩子吧？？

我不要求些什么，因为我知道你已经把一切都给我了！

我爱你！

妈妈！

Have you ever met a Santa Claus??

2009-08-07T04:33:00.000-07:00

Have I really met a Santa Claus??
Yes! I have! Certainly.........

I met him yesterday........not to say met but I did received present from him..........
I know it for sure...........it was HIM~! hehe...........

Yesterday....
9.09pm

He sent me a message...........
I was surprised........
he asked me to go to my post box...........
This caused my confusion.......???

Herm.......

But i did what he had ordered me to do..........
I walked in the inky darkness~

At first,i was scared to put my hand into the post box.........
I scared that would be something bad inside......
I tried to observe what was inside it..........

but failed,So i took a deep breath and tried to convince myself that Santa Claus would not lie me.......Then,i slowly put my hand in..........i felt something! i could feel that it was a plastic bag with something inside it.......i could hear the "sZZ" sound made from the plastic bag.......

Oh no! it was a present............

With many complicated feelings,i walked back to my own room,i unwrapped the present!

Herm!

Guess What was inside it??

I saw many GREEN things inside...........
PLUS the most appreciable was the 3 letters written by Santa Claus.........

He was attempting to make himself clear in the letters......
He told me stories that he had never spoken to me before~~
He declared his feelings towards me......##
He gave me his best wishes..........
He said he was happy to be with me..........
His words have strengthened my heart and soul..............

Although it was a belated birthday present in the sense that my birthday was on 17th of July.............It doesn't matter!

Because It was you...........sAnTa CLaUs!

I was filthy happy that i received such WONDERFUL present
I was glad that i could meet Santa Claus in my life-span of dont know how many years........
Woohu! Thank you ya! Santa Claus.........I like your present so so much!

At the end........I want to wish all my blog readers to have a chance to meet Santa Claus too!

Although it happens just once in a blue moon~~** we still have to believe that it will happen.......because this was what i have experienced yesterday night.........

最珍贵的一天！

2009-07-17T06:19:00.000-07:00

7月17日
七月十七日
17。7。09

17/7/2009

好难忘的一天哦！
因为今天真是太特别了。。。。。。
以前。。。。。。。从来没试过像今天这样，
一个充满爱的生日。。。。。。
一个全新的庆祝活动。。。。
一个意想不到的惊喜！
一个属于林秦诗的生日！

我并没有期待过什么。。。。。
因为我觉得我没资格去期待些什么！
因为我很少帮别人庆祝生日。。。。。。
虽然我诡计多端，可是我却常常忘了别人的生日！所以我并没有奢望我周围的朋友会记得我的生日。。。。。只要其中一个记得。。。。。然后祝我生日快乐时，周围听到的朋友才恍然大悟。。。。。原来今天是我的生日，然后才说生日快乐，我已经很满足了！
但是。。。。。。我意想不到的事。。。。。。这个17岁的生日，我过得很好！过得很充实，过得很感动！

今天到了学校，和我一起等上课的朋友都有对我说那句话！我除了说谢谢。。。。。还是谢谢！
可是等到我下完课后，排队的时间。。。。。。让我的心情有了像是做过山车的起伏。
当时我正排在队伍的最后面，站在最前排的副班长突然大喊。。。。。“大家！今天是秦诗的生日，我们一起唱生日歌咯！”

结果原本寂静的一刻，充满了歌声与拍掌声，他们望着我的神情让我的心融化掉了一半！当时我也是除了说谢谢之外。。。。。有是无言了。。。不过不同的是。。。心中多了一份温暖。。。。。

进班后。。。。。走回座位后！
我。。。。。。。
惨了！
怎么会有这么多青色的东西在我的桌子上？？
我吓傻了！
后来才知道原来这些全是我的生日礼物。。。。。
我的朋友们都知道我迷青色迷得无法自拔！
他们真是非常贴心。。。。。。
我心被他们完完全全溶成酱了。。。。。
他们的细心让我深深地被感动到。。。。。。
谢谢你们！！
对我不离不弃。，，
当我的好朋友。。。。。。

回到家后，我拆开了朋友送我的礼物。。。。。。
我看到了3封信。。。。。。
我留下泪了。。。。。。。
那3封不是一般的信，
是3封心信。。。。。。。
他们把心都掏出来给我了。。。。。。
我好感动。。。。。
虽然我很容易被感动。。。。。。
但是我却很容易会忘记感动。。。。。。。
但是这3封信并不会这么轻易“失觉”--->失去感动的自觉
谢谢你们！我真的很爱你们！！！
希望你们会永远当我的好朋友！！！
友谊永存好吗？？

爱情小说与爱情歌曲.......

2009-07-04T15:38:00.001-07:00

我很少看爱情小说.
原因是我发现所有爱情小说的故事桥段都十分相似....
不是下雨时一起撑伞,就是一杯冰琪淋两人分.........
一直反复地说着........写着......读着......念着...........同样的故事!
别说我太过奖我自己.......我觉得如果我再大上几岁......我所写的爱情故事说不定能流传千古!成为人中的爱情指导学策.......

我很爱听爱情歌曲.
原因是爱情歌曲真的能打动我的芳心........
它那优美动听的旋律......再加上歌词的细腻度以及配合度.........真的让人听出耳油!!
爱情歌曲与爱情小说相比下,爱情歌曲在我心里"更胜一筹".........
因为我是听觉动物............
我用大部分的精神去聆听,耳朵是我最重要的器官.............
所以爱情小说里靠的只是以文字来表达情感的方式.........一字一句我看进眼里...也都只是纸上谈兵罢了。。。。。。。。。
至于能不能触动人心。。。。。。。。。。那就是见仁见智的问题了！！！

爱情歌曲不一样！
它需要一句句适合而且不腻的对白才能称得上是一首好情歌！
对白就像是一对情人。。。。。恋人。。。。。。爱人。。。。在弹奏着属于他们本身的爱情故事。。。。。
一点点的快乐。。。。。一丝丝的幸福。。。。
都可以在仅仅三四分钟的一首普通情歌里听得到和感受得到！

歌词是歌曲的灵魂！
它能够让歌曲有三百六十度的转变！
同样的曲可以填入各种各样不一样类型的歌词。。。。。
有调皮可爱的。。。。。。
有离别伤心的。。。。。。
有哭泣难过的。。。。。。
又开心搞怪的。。。。。
也会有生死离别的。。。。。。。。
这证明了为何艺人们都能非常容易就被其他人改掉歌曲的原本歌词。。。。。。。
大家都能做作词人。。。。。
能把自己想传达的对白填入歌里。。。。。。
把它变成自己的情歌。。。。。。。
哼奏着自己的心情写照。。。。。。。
无奈爱情小说却不能这样。。。。。。。
只能永远阅读着别人所写的，所编的情节，，，，
把它改了的话。。。。。。。
小说的内容就会变得含糊不清。。。。。
小说的故事就会一塌糊涂！

不但如此，爱情歌曲也是老少皆贤的.......爱情小说却不是！
爱情歌曲有男生唱，女生版的，，也有男女对唱的。。。。。。。
不同的歌手可以带出不一样的感觉。。。。。
又幸福的。。。。。
有苦涩的。。。。
又悲伤的。。。。
也会有甜蜜的。。。。
这些感觉加起来的话！
一首完整的情歌，一个感人肺腑的故事便诞生了！！！！

从暗恋，，迷恋。。。。明恋。。。。相恋。。。。一直到失恋。。。。
着一些阶段都是一些非常宝贵的体验。。。。。。只有本身经历过才能写出一首色香味俱全的情歌！！！
要编制出一首独一无二。。。。。。属于自己的情歌不容易。。。。。要编制出能触动人心的爱情歌曲。。。。更是非常困难！
如果要有浅做起的话。。。。。。
那么就先作“秦诗”吧！！！！！
哈哈哈哈。。。。。。。。。。。。

爱情小说与爱情歌曲.......

2009-07-04T15:38:00.000-07:00

我生命中的两个怪男人。。。。。

2009-06-12T08:08:00.000-07:00

从我十二岁至今。。。。。从我懂事至今。。。。我特别对两个男人留下深刻的印象！
这两个人。。。。。无论是外表，性格，喜好，个头，甚至是态度都格格不入。。。。。
可是他们却能深深地把我给吸引住。。。。。。
如果要说是他们有着不一样的个人风格。。。。。倒不如说是我变不一样了！
的确。。。。。。我怎可能还是原来以前那个傻傻分不清楚的女孩呢？？
经过岁月的吹残。。。。。。时间的流逝。。。。。青春的蜕变。。。。。
我。。。。。。。
怎么可能还会是以前的林秦诗呢？？

说回来。。。。。。这两个男人。。。。。。
我称他们为甲先生和丁先生好了！
甲先生是个个子高，样子帅，有着让人可以依靠的肩膀！
曾经我是多么地喜欢他。。。。。为他着迷！
但是他却也是个痞子。。。。。。花心大萝卜！
这也代表着型男无痴心吧？？

丁先生却正好相反！
丁先生个子小，样子不俊，也是个不能让人依靠的男生！
但是他的内心却是如此澎湃，心底好，人品佳！简直是一个好男人！！
不过如此。。。。。。
这也意味着好心便是丑？

这两个男人。。。。。。
虽然两人都让我心动。。。。。。但如果你要我做个选择，我会说我谁都不要！
那是因为。。。。。
我是一个比谁都希望被呵护的女生！
我需要爱，需要安全感，需要保护，需要快乐，需要温柔，需要赞美，需要心疼，需要珍惜，需要安慰，需要坚强，需要一切。。。。。。
所以如果要我二选一。。。。。。。
我实在没办法。。。。。。
因为两者不能得到均衡。。。。。那么我两个都不会要！

给甲先生的话。。。
XX,你曾经是多么美丽的一颗星星。。。。。。悬挂在天空，闪烁发亮的双眸，让我不得不把你记在心里。。。。。但是地球仍继续转动。。。。。如果我站在原地！而你只会越走越远。。。。。。可能当地球转完一个圈后，也就是说365 天以后，你从新回到了我身边。。但是那时的我可能已经对你毫无感觉了！因为岁月，时间和青春都是无法换回来的宝物啊！现在社会一直在求变，求新。。。。别说是一年！可能一天大家都变了！。。。。。都不一样了！！所以我要跟你说！我不爱你了！！我希望岁月也一样吹残了你！让你不能再利用帅气的外表继续伤害无辜的少女了！！！

给丁先生的话。。。
YY,我知道虽然你不是人群中最耀眼的一个。。。。。可是你内心的真情流露，却是一辈子都换不回来的礼物。。。。。你是善良的天使，温驯的人类，是绝种好男人! 但是你却不适合我！我要得你都无法给到我......正如我也无法给到你想要的一样！！你不能成为我的避风港，因为你没有宽阔的肩膀。。。。。你不能成为我的挡雨台，因为你没有可靠的肩膀。。。。。。你不能成为我的护身符，因为你没有辽阔的肩膀。。。。。。但这些也并不是重点！重点是。。。。。跟你相处久了，才发现原来我麻雀虽小，但我竟然可以饰演男生的角色，陪你演上了一段完美的遗憾。。。。。相处了这么久，我习惯了。。。。。。心也跟着淡了！就让这一切结束吧！
梦。。。。。。。。。
也该到了清醒的时候吧！

甲先生和丁先生。。。。。。。

有缘千里能相会，无缘一尺不相逢！

再见了！！！！！！

我的爱。。。。。。。。。

To those who understand or not understand me..........

2009-05-26T06:41:00.000-07:00

不惜歌者苦
，但伤知音稀

知我者，为我心忧;
不知我者，为我何求。

有学高中二年级名句精华的朋友。。。。大概都知道上面那两句成语是些什么的吧？
其实最近我发现了一件事。。。。。那就是原来了解我的人，和不了解我的人的分别。。。。
了解我的人知道我在想什么。。。。。想做什么。。。。讨厌什么。。。。爱什么。。。。
不了解我的人不会想知道我在想什么。。。。。不会明白我想做什么。。。。不会了解我讨厌什么。。。。不一定知道我爱什么。。。。。

如果你想知道你是否了解我。。。。。。。请看一下的比方：
1）了解我的人会说我话很多。。。。。不了解我的人会说我很吵！
2）了解我的人会说我是活泼。。。。。不了解我的人会说我捣蛋！
3）了解我的人会说我很苯。。。。。。不了解我的人会说我很无知！
4）了解我的人会说我很天真。。。。。不了解我的人会说我很白痴！
5）了解我的人会说我样衰。。。。。不了解我的人会说我很丑！
6）了解我的人会说“你一定是”。。。不了解我的人会说“你是不是”
7）了解我的人会叫我“死八婆，肥婆，喂！”。。。不了解我的人会叫我“秦诗，sunsilk"
8）了解我的人会说“你讲话好大声哦！”。。。。不了解我的人会说“你可以安静一下吗？？”
9）了解我的人会常说“是么？？”。。。不了解我的人会常说“是啦！”
10）了解我的人看完后会笑。。。。。。不了解我的人看完后会不知所措！
11）了解我的人看完后回笑说“你看！我几了解你！”。。。。。不了解我的人看完后会说“你是这样的么？？”

感言:
致给所有不了解我的人。。。。。。
不要以为这些都是我乱作的。。。。。。
也许你们会觉得说我怎么可能是这样的人。。。。。。。。
但我告诉你们。。。。。。
我就是这样子的人！
你们会这样想，。。。那是因为你们不了解我！！
知道了吗？？！

考试期间...别叫我秦诗......叫我蝙蝠吧!!

2009-05-16T05:02:00.000-07:00

**一张我很想捏碎扔掉的样衰考试时间表。。**

考试!!!!!
我恨你!
你把我的自由给没夺了!
你把我的健康给吞噬了!!
你把我的青春给局限住了!!
你把我的一切给毁了!!!!
别问我有多恨你!!
因为这一辈子我都不能原谅你!!!!!
哈哈..........可是我又很爱你喔!!!!
好矛盾哦!!!
嘻嘻!!!!!

考试.........

我经过了日日的思考.......夜夜的揣摩......
我现在终于知道考试的精彩........考试的兴奋.....
何谓精?? 何谓彩???

精是精神错乱,....精神分裂!!

彩是无精打采.....睬你都傻!

何谓兴?? 何谓奋???

兴是心情低落.......心惊胆战......

奋是愤怒不已.......分数不好........

更样衰的事!!!!!
我竟然丑事连连!
三番四次不知道那天考的东西!!!!!!
每次被人笑了我才知道!!!!!
真是有够样衰的!!!!!

让我来一一为大家说明我样衰的程度吧!!!!!

4/5 The first day...........(BM paper 2 and BI paper 2)

i was wondering what was all about languages paper 1 and 2..........
1 is essay or 2 is essay./>???
i came with a question mark.......a big one ?
then i decided to ask my friend.........but i know that i will unable to remember until my death.......sorry to say that!!! haha......

5/5 The next day.........(Physics paper 2 and mathematics paper 2)

Oh my god! i was totally out of sleep that day........i got no energy to write as the physics paper 2 was all about structure questions and essay!!!!
Damn shit!!!!! sorry to say that...........but it was the only word to describe how shit that day!!! haih!!!!!!

6/5 The third day..........(Physics paper 3 and Moral)

Walao!!!!!! When moral paper...........i was fell asleep!!! my brain was blank..........
yer! very hate moral paper er! all also dia patut mengamalkan nilai what what what.........mereke harus mengamalkan nilai apa...........i wrote this for dont know how many times liao!!!!!!!
really very tiring loh!!!!!!!! plus very WU LIAO!!!!!!!!

7/5 (just mathematics paper 1)

WAH!!!!!! so happy..........finally got time to rest...........
paper started at 11.30am.......i felt like wanted to ponteng and came at 10.30 during third recess,......i was even sms and asked my classrap whether i could do this a not...........but she said today yi yin kena liao...........teacher marked her down as LATE.......so i better not do this..........haha!

8/5.........(oh no!!!!! EST paper1,sejarah 1 and BC paper 1 leh.......!!!!! shit loh)

very charm.............need to hafal and hafal and hafal..........i slept two hours only............how??!!!!
Scary.............

oh............The most unbearable day..........19/5(Chemistry 3,sivik and physics 1)

Sei loh.............Today is the most yeong shui day............because i forgotten that day was chemistry and physics......!!!!!! i thought it ws biology 3 that was on 20/5........luckily i got studied them also.........if not i wont be able to answer!!!!!!!!! sHIT!!.......erm~~during the physics paper.........i accidentally dropped my spectacles on the floor........cik hani........the teacher on duty was standing behind my spectacles..........i was worried that she might accidentally stepped on my spectacles too! so i extended my hand out to give her a signal to not walk across!........However/....short in stature=short hand.........i was not succeed in blocking cik hani from walking across!

"Bleng"..........she stepped on my pitiful glasses! Kesiannya..........she said that!

hhaih...........really very malang loh.........but is good in the way that i can buy a new glasses!

i want GREEN!!!!!! wahaha...........

考试期间。。。别叫我秦诗，。。。。叫我蝙蝠。。。。

为什么呢？？因为我的生活与别人是不成真比的！我晚上读书。。。。睡了两个小时后。。。就起来继续读。。。。。。然后早上到下午都一直没时间睡觉。。。。。。。今天！！！20/5。。。。。。终于可以叫回我的名字了！！！我叫秦诗！！！！谢谢！！！哈哈～～

oh no!!!! again.........
today i got back my biology paper 1.......
my friend took it and gave it to me with a big grin on her face......
then she called me......
lim qin SHH........!
when i took it.......
i was shocked by what i had written down on the name there.......
i worte my name wrongly!@!!!!!!
So fish and yeong shui of me!
now everbody is calling me........lim qin SHH!.......haha!!!!!!\

写给晴丝的情诗。。。

2009-05-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

这里有首诗。。。。。它名叫情诗；
这里有个人。。。。。它名叫秦诗;
这里有支洗发水。。。它名叫晴丝。
秦诗用晴丝洗发精时，心血来潮为晴丝写了一首情诗。
情诗里说秦诗用晴丝时，心血来潮为晴丝写了一首情诗，情诗的名字是“写给晴丝的情诗”，做诗人叫秦诗。。。。。。
秦诗在情诗里也说她对晴丝情有独中。。。。。。。因为它的名字与自己的名字一样特别，而且晴丝又香又滑，就像秦诗一样。。。。从此，秦诗因用了晴丝而头发变得乌黑柔顺，所以特别写了这首诗来表达自己对晴丝的情感，也希望秦诗可以和晴丝溶为一体，变成令人连秦诗和晴丝都傻傻分不清楚的合成体！！
《写给晴丝的情诗》
青青草园一片青。。。。。
蓝蓝海水一片蓝。。。。。
橙橙天空一片光。。。。。
轻轻秦诗脚一踏。。。。。
羞羞含羞草合上。。。。。
春风飘过脸颊上。。。。。
淡淡飘出晴丝香。。。。。
与君一同坐草上。。。。。
你腕抚摸我头发。。。。。
合眼握手听海浪。。。。。
眨眼看看鸥飞翔。。。。。
睁眼互望俩脸颊。。。。。
亲亲一吻心欢畅。。。。。
秦诗晴丝真漂亮！！！！！
情诗写完了，晴丝也用完了。。。。。。接下来秦诗又得去买晴丝了。
第二首情诗可能要来了，第二瓶晴丝又没了，秦诗变得更加漂亮了！哈哈。。。

为什么每次都是我?!!!!

2009-04-24T20:17:00.000-07:00

虽然没下雨.........但我觉得天总是灰暗的......
虽然没停电.........但我觉得这世界总是黑暗的......
虽然没下雪.........但我觉得我的血是冰的......
虽然没哭泣.........但我觉得我的心淌着血......
虽然没失忆.........但我总是想不起快乐的画面..........
虽然没消失.........但我伸出手...........总是抓不会幸福的感觉.................
为什么??
难道我就怎么不可以得到幸福吗???
难道除了微笑........我就不能大笑吗??
可怕.................

灰........
阴暗........
灰暗..........到
黑............

颜色已经能告诉你..........
从灰到黑.......
不会很明显吧??
可是却对我造成无比的伤害!

为什么每次都是我!
为什么每次有问题时.......个个都把矛头指向我.......
我只是仅仅做错一次..........
为什么一 shoot 就要 shoot我??
是因为因缘巧合...........还是我不好采??
真是太过分了............!!!!!

我已经好久没能好好睡一觉了!!!!!!
就连睡觉的美好感觉......
我已不能记起了!
更别说要睡饱!
就连小睡片刻都有困难了!

为什么每次都是我??!!!!
为什么每次都是我跟人不一样/???
难道特别有罪吗？？
每次无论我又没有人心听课。。。。。。
就算真的有！但是我不知道为什么每次就只有我一个人跟大家不一样，。。。。。
每次只有不知道。。。
每次都只有我不明白。。。。。
每次都只有我 not 对。。。。。。。。。。。。

例子。。。：
剪报只有我一个人不知道原来班上的布告板上贴了时间与号码。。。。。
就只有我傻傻地在部队的时间找了老师。。。。
而且误会了要剪的内容。。。。。言论版。。。。。
我把它剪成新闻稿。。。。。。。。。。。
让老师在班上针对着我来骂。。。。。。
令我大受打击！

又一个例子。。。。：
昨天上完 biology 后/。。。。我以为是下课时间。。。。。所以留下来问功课。。。。。。结果下去拿书包时。。。。。
糟了！！！1
怎么一个书包都没有的？？
虽然我知道了。。。。
可是我却还若无其事地去了廁所。。。。。。
回来才傻傻地望去我的教室！
惨咯！
为什么风扇是开着的？？？
急地我快要疯了。。。。。
我连忙飞上教室。。。。。
幸好不是上 miss tham 的课。。。。。
不然今天我已没有机会写日记了！！

又另一个例子。。。。
我现在才知道原来我平常最爱喝的美禄的泡法是。。。。一汤匙美禄粉，三汤匙的糖，和记汤匙的炼奶所泡的！！！！！
亏我还真么爱它！
没想到竟然是因为加了很多很多的糖换来的。。。。
真令我难过。。。。。。。。。。
以后还是少喝为妙！
不然有糖尿病就惨了！！！！
美禄。。。。。永别了！！！！

种种的例子。。。。。让我对自己真的觉得很失望！！！咳！
后知后觉的我。。。。。
究竟是好事。。。。还是坏事？？
究竟是傻傻。。。。还是苯苯??

I wouldn't know................

秦诗写情诗wowo

2009-04-21T23:21:00.000-07:00

出奇吗？？
咳！！
好久都不能上网了。。。。。刚好今天得空。。。。。。。在学校上网！！！真爽！！哈哈。。。。。。。
今天上了华文科。。。。。。老师教我们如何赏析古代诗歌。。。。。。所以今天一直听到我的同名读音。。。。那就是“情诗”哈哈。。。。。

其实我是真得非常喜欢自己的名字。。。。。秦诗~
你能找到另外一个跟我同名字的人吗？
很渺茫对吧？？
那就是我喜欢它的地方。。。。
特别。。。。。。的确不一样！！

昨天也是非常特别的一天。。。。。
人总是说。。。。。
能令你对某些事觉得有兴趣的。。。。。。莫过于‘特别’吧？？
昨天是我一个好哥哥的生日。。。。。他叫陈伟健。。。。
四月二十一号。。。。。。。
他也有个特别的地方。。。。。那就是很像女生！哈哈。。。
我常酸他说:"EVEN I AM MORE BOYISH THAN YOU!" haha......
Cham loh......suddenly cant type mandarin tim......hehe
erm........
i think still got one more special thing about him........
that is his name!]l
look at it........
seldom people got "health" in mandarin de。。。。。but his name got it，。。。。。
so this is another special of him gua？？？
haha。。。。。。。。。。。

今天也是我另外一个朋友的生日。。。。。。
所谓好事成双嘛！！！！
哈哈。。。。。。

特别。。。。。。。这两个字。。。。这一个词。。。。。可以用来形容很多东西。。。。。。比如说用在人身上。。。。。
‘我觉得你今天打扮得很特别'
你会认为人家是在赞你。。。。。还是在取笑你呢？？
给我的话。。。
我会说。。。。。。“他是在赞我的！”
因为特别对我来说。。。。。。包涵的是好的一面。。。。。。就算大家都说不好看。。。。。。可是只要有一个人说。。。。。。“你真得很特别”。。。那我就会相信它是在赞扬我。。。。。。因为在这个世界上。。。。。。有谁还能像自己呢？？。。。。。。自己就是自己。。。。。。独一无二。。。。。就像蓝天白云。。。。。
蓝天很大吧？？
特别吗？？

白云很多吧？？
特别吗？？

特别代表无限。。。。。。。。

秦诗。。。。
代表一个自己。。。。。。

Today Is What Day?

2009-04-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

Erm..........
Yer!!!!!! My Computer has Spoilt!!!!1
I cannot online,play games,listen to music,upload photos,download songs and watch movie ANYMORE!!!!!!!
Not Syok punya!1............
luckily my brother has came back from college this few days...........if not my blog will be outdated!!! although i also dont think so now lah........haha!!!!!!

What to tell leh??
these days i got no story to share.............
Maybe my mood wasn't too bad and wasn't too good ba..............
so destructive plus instrutive equals to >>>_______________ FLAT!!!!!! haha

Yee!!! I want to ComplaIn er!!!!!!
Why F5 so many homework leh!!!!!!!!!!
My Homework always adding...............even though i am always doing,writing,copying,reading,and so on..........
But it never works~~!
Haih..........Guo Fen!!!

(Weak addition.......)
If it is going to happen again!.............
Commit suicide is the best way to solve all my troubles..............
But What is for sure............
This is not my style lah!!!!!!!!!!! haha...........

My style is ---->>>
Holding a mic........
Turn on the music..........
Sing loudly and rhythmically..........
I really want to sing K!!!!!!!!!! haha

CoLours........

2009-03-31T04:05:00.000-07:00

Colour...............
if i were to ask you.........when you see green colour.......white colour........black colour..........any colour...........what will you think of??

if you were to ask me..........this would be my answers---->

White-children
GREEN-莲蓉
BLUE-sky
Orange-Oranges
Red-apple
Yellow-no comment.........haha
Pink-my shirt
Purple-my friend's shirt.........
Chocolate-my sister's shirt
Black-my keyboard

Do you wonder why no white colour??
Actually it is in front of green..........
i wrote something for it.........
but it just couldn't be seen.........

White is the basic colour.........
no white no any other colours........
this is what the meaning of "Children are as white as papers".........
We were once children!.........as white as,,,,,,,,,as pure as papers!
As for now..........
We are teenagers............

Teenagers..........
Years of tending to do bad things...........
Our minds are not as pure as before.........
Our thoughts are containing impurities.........
Then came the colours..........
Green,blue,black.yellow,orange,purple,pink,whatever..........
White has gone............
Same as now............
The white inside my post...........
Could Never Be Seen!

Truth and Fake........

2009-03-28T21:25:00.000-07:00

　　　　 真真假假，假假真真；

　　　　 看真亦假，看假亦真；

　　　　说真非真，说假非假；

　　　　闻真似假，闻假似真；

　　　　想真不真，想假不假；

真实和虚假的真面目，到底有谁能够分辨？？

人类有五大器官，如；眼睛，耳朵，嘴巴，鼻子和眼眉毛，

可是五大器官加起来都很难分辨真与假，那是为什么呢？

那是因为真与假的定义太广了。。。。。。。。很难弄清楚！！

就拿这张照片来说，有谁能猜得出来有多少个人在图中？？

如果你猜对了。。。那就表示你能够分辨出真与假吗？

如果你猜不中。。。那也表示你不能分辨出真假的意境吗？

那根本就不成真比啊！！！

因为这个世界充满了真与假，可悲的是家却远远超越了真，战胜以及掩盖它！！

人的眼睛。。。。。看真亦假，看假亦真。。。。。

那是因为眼睛也有黑白两道。。。。那就是黑眼珠和白眼球。。。。。所以黑与白，真与假。。。。试问又怎能看得清呢？？

人的嘴巴。。。。。说真非真，说假非假。。。。。。

那是因为人总是口是心非。。。。。

想一套。。。。。说一套。。。。。

讲一套。。。。。做一套。。。。。

试问又怎能真假不异呢？

人的耳朵。。。。。闻真似真，闻假似假。。。。。。

那是因为人总是只听取好的。。。。。。虽然不是真的。。。。。但是他们都不会去理会。。。。。

如果是不好听的话。。。。。。虽然真实。。。。但是他们也挥毫不犹豫地欣然接受。。。。

这就是人类了。。。。。。。。。。　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

This is not a home........this is a house for ME~!

2009-03-27T06:08:00.000-07:00

Yer! i Got a bit boring staying in the house........just a simple house.........lifeless.........do you all discover something from my blog???!!
I seldom use my favourite colour__GREEN__in my post liao...........WHY>>>???
Because i am not happy...........Why this is just a house? not My homE>>>???

Ordinary person like me.........i like to talk~~listen to music.......fool around..........SMILE..........GRIN...............and finally LAUGH............
but all these are slowly fading away.........now i think i am happier when i am in the school.........got friends.,.........got responsible teachers..........got band...........got my nice nice Bass Drum...........got my friends and my laughter..............is good to listen to them.........although they are included teasing......accusing.........complaining...........and so on! but they never spoilt our relationship........but they forged it..........thank you all of you*******
Love and miss you all~!!!~~! hehe...............**

House?? What is it all about???? What is it containing.?? what does it matter?!!!!!!!!!! WHat For~??
I Need A hOme!
Filthily...........BadLy..........~

House is just a place to stay...........but home is a place to live...........
House is just a place to stand.........but home is a place to sit.............
House is just a place to read..........but home is a place to study.......
House is just a place to lay............but home is a place to sleep........
House is just a place to cry...........but home is a place to laugh........
House is just a 4-walled compound filling with nothing.......
but a home is a opened air compound filling with full love and laughter........
Aren't they a big contrast??..........HAIH^^

Sister.........do you know you are changing.......??
I know...........and i understand,,,,,,,,,,,,i can forgive,............but i cannot accept??.........
You are growing older............and me too! but my mind NEVER!
your thinking is most likely to be different than mine!
Your thought..............Oh No! unbearable..........sometimes!
Behind you.......i see nothing!
HOw:???
I dont know how to think the same way as you............i dont know how to communicate with you................also,i dont know how to get close back with you!!!
OUR generation's gap is getting wider and wider as time passes.............
Dont know how to forge it back..............
SORRY^^^!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Band Camp 14th to 18th MaRcH~~~~So SyOk~!!!

2009-03-18T19:51:00.000-07:00

I Love This band Camp So sO sO muCh^^.............ReallY Very HappY And ImPReSsIvE!!!!!!!!

The first time i be the conductor of the band..............the feeling was so shocking yet very amazing^~~! got people teased me also got people praised me..........but i like those funny funny conductor............not i give them beat............but i follow their's beat...............wAhhaha~!!!!!!

2009-03-07T06:08:00.001-08:00

十七年后的今天.........我才知道.........原来当我哭泣后.........从镜子里看自己~~~是如此真实，清楚的.............!!!!

对不起............2个月后的第一文章..........就是写些不好的...........但如果你真的尝试.............你会看到自己非常清楚!!!!!!!! 为什么？这是因为眼泪只是模糊了你的视线.........但它让你看清你的心..........人们总是说心眼可以看到比眼睛更清楚.........因此，它已证明了我的话~~~!!!

今天我哭了.............因此，天空的颜色是黑色............haha!!!!! Do Not Worry^^i cried was not because i was not happy or sad.......it was just because of two movies.........i finished my exam today! so HappY**........then i got time to watched movie........the first movie was"钱不够用".........this movie talked about 1 old woman and her three sons.........whose we call 不孝子........看完这部电影后..........我才知道............有这样的人在这个世界上!!!!!!!! 太过分了!!!!!!! 故事的开始,他们的三个儿子和他们的妻子拜访他们的母亲,他们都坐在一起吃晚餐,他们有说有笑，但他们
只是喜欢取笑对方来获得快乐.......但是，这是他们的沟通方式..........!!!! 当时他们的母亲仍是健康的.......但是之后，他们的儿子有繁忙的工作...........缺乏照顾她..........他们只是随便给她吃药,这就是为什么他们的母亲最后会生病............以前他们总是利用他们的母亲......他们喜欢在道路上超速行驶........当让警察捉到,他们将用他们的母亲的licience来裁减分........或拿他们的母亲的钱.........

One day........when they noticed that their mother was suffering of 老人痴呆'证'.....their mother couldn't 'peep' properly....therefore they forced her to sit on the toilet bowl whole day,she sleeps in the kitchen....eats inside the toilet....shifts here and there to ensure that their friends or relatives would not see her/....really very cham! .....however.,after sometime...they found her mother was an abundant to them....so they decided to let her stay in the "rumah bahagia".....i can still remember how their sons lied her to get into the gate of "Rumah Bahagia"........and ran quickly once she stepped inside.......their mother called them loudly......"Ah Ong...!! I dont want to stay in here.....bring me go!!!!!"...but they had never turned to their mother's direction........just kept on running......!!!!! Finally they mother fell down and was hospitalised then!.........At the hospital.........her second son..........his daughter was being hospitalised too and his mother and daughter were needed the O- blood..........but the hospital just left one.........so without any hesitation........the second son had chosen to save her daughter......he said...:"What for saving mother??!!!! she is old and is waiting to die only......",but my daughter is still young and has great future"..........but his two brothers were not agreed with him........they were arguing and grabbing the blood just right in front of their mother's bed.......one drop of tears rolled down from her face........then she pulled out her 'gas delivering tube'..........and sacrificed herself to save her grandchildren...........haih!!!!!! this is just the summary of the whole movie.........i already beh tahan liao!!!!!!!! really very very very cham!!!!!!!!!!!! haih/............i hope in reality........this kind of people will not appear! because they are the rubbish among the community.........they are sisa-sisa makanan! they are 饼碎!!!!!!!!!!! they shouldn't have been in this world!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry To sAy That^^haih...........still got one more sad movie to tell leh...........!!!!!! but now is already 2am...........i think i should continue in my next post............haha!

What /i Want to Say Is about tears de leh...........why i went so far away.......talking about movie geh???!!!!!!!!!! whahaha..............Sho Po Ah^^ok lah.........i will continue to tell the next movie next time............but i think i have no time to write de lah........critical year for me!!!!!!!! wahaha............

^^^___母爱.......真伟大___^^^

怎样大???

>>>>> *^^大于天空^^* <<<<<

容忍..........将导致气喘??

2009-01-22T01:27:00.000-08:00

今天天空的颜色是棕色的..........

为什么？

那是因为我不快乐..........

为什么我会提出这个题目？

那是因为我感受到~~

我不知道我是否立场太坚定.........

把自己逼疯了。。。。

可是我绝对认为容忍是会导致气喘的。。。。。因为它发生在我身上！！

前几天，还没放假的时候。。。。。。。没记错的话，应该是星期四。。。。。我肯定不会记错！因为那天还我连续倒霉了很多很多*年*。。。。。。

故事从我的两个学校老师开始。。。。。我称她们为老师甲和老师丙~~

老师甲今天突然“心血来潮”。。。。。。无端端借了另外一个老师的节。。来跟我们谈我们班的“终生大事”。。。。。。。她并不是这么讨人喜欢。。。。。所以我们也是随便敷衍她便算了。。。。。。。。可是她却得尺进里。。。。。。竟然说个没完没了！导致我们班迟到去老师丙的课。。。。。。她却还假淅淅地推卸责任。。。。。。说是我们自己不愿下去！真令人狰！！！！！！恨不得把她丢进马桶，拉水，把她冲到尼洛江去！！！！！

等到我们去到老师丙那里。。。。。老师丙的脸色已经黑得不得了！她自责我们为什么常常犯同样的错。。。。。明知道她不喜欢学生迟到。。。。。。她还所只要在犯多一次。。。。下次她就不教书，只是用屁股对着我们。。。。。。随便乱来。。。。。。然后每次只是抄东西。。。。。。。其实这一招老师丙去年也有用过。。。。。所以我真的很害怕。。。。

我们便跟她解释。。。。。可是她说她不要听！！！这时整班一起闹轰轰起来。。。。。。全部都在讨论或是批评老师甲。。。。。害人害己！真不应该！！！！！气死人了！！

看到这种画面。。。。。我真的好害怕！因为我真的很喜欢上老师丙的课。。。。。。如果我们班在继续吵下去。。。。。。老师丙必定会实行去年的教学方式。。。。。。我真的很想拍桌子，站起来，，，喊一句：“不要再吵了！”。。。可是我没有这种勇气。。。。。没有这种胆量。。。。。。毕竟我在班上，什么地位身份也没有。。。。。。怎能发威呢？？~~

结果我忍气吞声。。。。。静静地不出声，只是盯着那些吵死人的“大苍蝇”。。。。。。希望她们能明白忍一时，风平浪静的道理。。。。。。咳！！！！为什么她们就不能看一看老师丙的脸色做人吗？？在这么尴尬的场面还敢说话的人。。。。。。真是令我佩服的五体投地！！！！！折服。。。。。折服啊！！！！！咳。。。。。。糟糕！

第二部分是昨天发生的。。。。。。。也是我一辈子都无法忘怀的噩梦！

昨天本来是很开心的。。。。。。上学的最后一天。。。。。舒舒服服的上课。。。。。高高兴兴的放学。。。。放学后还可以去麦当劳吃我在2009年的第一杯冰淇淋。。。。。。真是爽到极点!!!!!!

但是补习后.........我的人生有了一个很大的转变.........~~
放学了.........6.15pm........我在楼下等车........我姐姐她 6.30pm 才放学,所以我就得等多以下.....
则到 6.45pm 了,我姐都还不见踪影.........我开始慌了/!!
车一直地停了又开走.........我身边的人也越来越少了..........剩下两个女生.......
她是个高高瘦瘦的女孩........长长的头发.........黑黑的.........看起来等的一脸不耐烦......所以她气冲冲地走去隔了一间店远的电话亭打电话..........远处正着急的我......也听到她骂对方的声音.......不过换成是我.......应该没那么理直气壮吧??!!

我心想.........应该是塞车吧........等到七点......如果还没来,才打电话吧!!~

我看着我的手表..........分针和秒针好像在赛跑一样.........没一会儿..........七点到了!
我忍不住了.......便去打电话给父母......问姐姐为什么还没来?? 我好害怕是发生了什么意外.........非常紧张!!~

其实,我真的好害怕.........因为我中一的时候.........曾经发生过非常可怕的过去.........导致我现在非常害怕一个人独自等车.........看见身边一个又一个走过的马来男人..........真的令我感到十分恐惧!!!
他们的眼神很诡异........不停地打量着我......手中拿着的烟蒂........吐出来的烟圈.........经过我身边时.......令我作呕!!!!!!! 更何况最后只剩下我一人..........顿时,我哭了.......眼泪含在眼里......不敢出声......不敢流出来.......~~ 我觉得我的呼吸变得很重.........忍得我快要喘不过气来!

我看看手表..........七点十五分了......我等了足足一个小时.........
我忍着的眼泪堆积在眼里..........多的模糊了我的视线........停在我眼前的车辆.........我已经没办法确定了.........我忍得好辛苦.........我站得好累...........我好想睡了!

突然我听见了熟悉的引擎声.........是我姐的车........绝没错!!!!!
我踩着乏力的脚印.........上了车...........我只感觉到很重的内疚味..........我姐拼命得跟我道歉....我没说话...........但忍了许久的眼泪......流了下来........
我并不是怪她.............而是我被吓哭了.........吓死了!
我的心停止了...........第二次!!~~

从一开始就没有必要隐藏.............

2009-01-16T22:44:00.000-08:00

这是我第27个著作............

A black SpoT InsiDe My HeaRt~~

2009-01-13T04:57:00.000-08:00

谢谢大家的支持...........我很震惊.............也非常的意外!!!!^^

我的部落格从一个孤立的世界...............仅有我自己的小世界.............扩张到大家也知道的评论地方.........虽然我很震惊...............但是我想.............我喜欢独自简单的写...........乱乱的写..........关于我的感觉.........情绪..........等等..........但也不希望让如此多的人在我的部落格上,看见这么多人在这里留下脚印+++haih./..............but nvm lah! As loNg as is still the same...........i write what i want to write........i display what i want to see.........i upload what i want to hear and i express what i want to tell IN MY OWN WAY!!!!!!!!!!! I Do liKe BloG***GamBatEH!!!!!!!!!

What i want to tell here??? i also quite blur..........maybe i should put a timetable here.......first!

MONDAY 2.00pm-5.00pm Band Practice
6.00pm-7.30pm English Tuition
Tuesday 2.30pm-5.30pm Malay Tuition
Wednesday 3.00pm-5.15pm Physics Tuition
6.00pm-7.30pm English Tuition
Thursday 3.00pm-5.00pm Chemistry Tuition
Friday 3.45pm-6.15pm Add Maths Tuition
Saturday 8.00am-1.00pm Band Practice

*****Sunday is the only day that is free! haha............But i still quite ok with this form 5 timetable.........i feel comfortable and appreciate what i got now...........!!~~Form 5 is a challenging year for all people.............even though now is only January..........but i always sense that SPM is just around the corner............maybe after Chinese New Year...............or maybe just after the March test..........after Mid-year test...........or just after Hantu day............or maybe is on 17th of november............??????? Really sO fAst.............Time FlieS wHEn We aRe haVing Fun............if dont want SPM to reach so fast.............so we better stop smilling from this second.............and dont have fun in this whole year.............haha!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~call us dont smile or laugh is more difficult than SPM lah,...........HEHE^^^^**

I like Green..................So put Back Ba~!!!
Erm...............I hope I can Cope With Form 5 Stress And Miss Heong's PressUre lah...........Today just let her punished..........very scare already!!!!!!! Hope I will Not ForgEt to bring Books,ForgEt to dO hoMewOrk..........And So On Lah!!!!!!!!! Maybe i should Write aBout My fear Feeling InsiDe the 周记...............haha!!!!!!! Attend Miss Heong Class Is A fEar Factor For me..............i Have Attended For 3 times already..............that means i have brek the record!!!!!!!! haha.........If i think i can,,,,,,,,,,i CAN^^^^so try to deal with the stress~~JIa YOu LIm QIn SHI~~

Maybe this is the last post for this month.............i said MA?YBE/.............haha! so dont try to spot my words ya!!!!!!! ok lah.............Thank You For Everyone of you that reads my blog and give me support.............either in physical or mental.............THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN^

我认为这是结束.......但实际上这只是开始

2009-01-01T18:34:00.000-08:00

今天是天灰灰的星期五........也是最奇怪的一天......
本以为昨天的部落格将是我最后一个邮件,突然我感觉想写多一点...........因为我想哭诉,haha..........其实今天有客人会到我家住2天........刚巧我会去我朋友家过夜.......因此，我不用看到我的大哥哥的朋友.........尽管他将留在我的房子为2天啦..........but also will not need to face "her" for so long.....haha! my jie jie is more cham than me..........need to face his friend.........haih!!!!!!

我想知道她是否是我大哥的女朋友............其实我的大哥刚刚和他的女朋友分手,,,,,,,,之后过了几天......then bring a girl back home to stay here.........this really make us feel weird............haih!!!!!!!

I thought christmas and new year will be the better days for couples or families..........somehow...........i dont know how..........my friend and my brother also just broke up with their life partner.........and the worst...........is until now i also have no BF...........haha!! joking~~haih...........why so cham geh???~~~!!! my friend broke up with her bf during christmas.......and my brother broke up with his gf during new year...........WHY WANT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!! 他们两个是我最看好的两对.................真的是让我大跌眼镜.........也让我看灰了世界..........但我知道爱仍将继续.................love will still go on...........也许他们跟我有相同对爱的看法................只要换一个方式的爱.............或许爱情会更加强大...............但我仍然希望有情人终成娟淑!!!!!!!! GAMBATEH~!!

HAha.........this maybe is my last ler gua?? because tomorrow i will not have time to write............maybe sunday still will write gua...........haha!!!~~HAPPY 2009 and Couples can In Love till tHe eNd Of The WorlD>......SaraNg HaEyO~^^

我看不起我自己.......

2008-12-31T21:23:00.000-08:00

我也不知道为什么我今天以此作为我的头衔........事实上我的中文zhi星无法运作,所以我从 google 里输入单词然后一个接一个地放在这里,所以也许会有点怪怪的........haha! 所以非常不便.....haih!!!!!

其实我真的想用中文来写部落ge.......because words in mandarin are more "colourful and meaningful" for me/.........but it is really hard to type one by one in google search........i wanna die!!!!! haih~~on 30th of december......that day was my parent's off day.........they brought us to "YOk Fok Moon" to eat dim sum...........and choong hou's shop is located opposite of "yok fok mon".......actually i didnt think that i will saw him or 碰上......结果命运耍了我们.........我已经向上帝祈祷.........说希望他能忘掉我...........希望我能成功地隐藏自己..........But What Is fate!!!!!!!!! Made us could not take it easy...........made us could not forget it............GO DIE LAH^^~!!!!!!! haih.......

可是是他先看见我的,过了一段时间...............我收到他的短信..............在SMS里...........he said.......:"eat dim sum ah? haha"...........then i felt shock.........to receive his message........but that time i havent reloaded........so couldn't reply him.........after that.......i reveived the second message..........he said:' why didnt reply me geh? angry me already??"...........
I decided to reply him and say YES............because he always treat me 忽冷忽热,让我止息.........但现在像感觉对不起我一样........这算什么妈??!!

天啊!!!! 为什么这样对待我!!!!! 为什么不干脆的放弃??!!!!! 为什么??!!!!! 告诉我啊! 笨蛋! 傻瓜! 愚蠢的笨蛋!!!!! 气死我了!!!!!!!!!!!

其实不提不表示不喜欢...........我仍然非常喜欢你,但是是另一种方法的喜欢.........是相同于爱........尽管是另一种途径..........但它仍然是喜欢与爱........因此你不能说我不喜欢你,不爱你! 而是不同的共同..........共识..............所以我爱你!!!!!~~~

This is my first post for this year 2009..........and my last post for the year 2008..........Goodbye to 2008 and welcome to 2009!!!!!! i hope this year will be different and challenging year for me! SPM is my friend for this year and i decided to make good friend with it to make 2009 a success in my life.........WONG CHOONG HOU>......./remember i am not giving you up..........i am just changing my miss and love into a different way..............LOve will still go on.............and love will stop until i am not LIM QIN SHI anymore.............is it ok?? If you think you can,then you really can! JIA YOU**Sarang HaeYO~!

GOODBYE To 2008~~
WelComE to 2009~~

GooDbYE to MichAel Wong~~
WelComE to WonG ChOOng HoU~~

GoodByE tO cLoeY liM~~
WelCoMe tO LIm qIn sHi~~

gOodBye tO PMR~~
wElComE To SPM~~

GoOdbYe tO F4~~
WELcome TO F5~~

GoodbYe TO PeraK StAdIuM~~
wELcOmE to KL WorLD MarChIng BAnD~~

Foreseeing my FUTURE~~

2008-12-28T17:57:00.000-08:00

Today i am not feeling good.......
I didnt online for few days.....and i have missed hwee mein's comment.......she told me she has to go NS on 28th december........but today only i online..............i saw her message......but it was too LATE!

I has missed the change to wish her good luck.......i has missed the chance to chat with her for the last time......now she has gone...........and i feel like "dui bu qi" her........now i really scrambling~! Really sorry HWee MeIn!~~Hope you can come back here with smilling face and will not have any incident that happens to you! JIA YOU**

School is going to reopen soon.........so today me and my sister will start cleaning up the rooms.......and gotong royong like that lah........very happy is tomorrow and totomorrow is my parent's off days......we can go out to eat and shopping! yeah^^ happy......hehe~! erm........these days i also didnt find him to chat lu......i think i have woke up! If he doesn't want to forgive me or chat with me.....then i know i should hide myself....dont let him see me!........then he will slowly forget the appearance LIM QIN SHI loh.........AM i clever leh?? hehe........WOng Choong Hou* this is the chance that GOD gave me to really stop myself from jumping down to a BIg huge Hole! and GOd also gave you the chance to forget the unhappy things........so we both must jia you! Bekerjasama.........and Work together to break this silly relationship........

**Wong Choong Hou**

The last few words that i wanna tell you is you must take care of yourself......stop hurting yourself and others like june......studying hard in your segi college and your lovely course.........Bussiness.......JIA YOU*

The last...........>>>>>>>

~I LOVE YOU~

Time Flies when We aRe having FUN*

2008-12-25T20:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my first time to celebrate christmas!

I went steven tuition at 9am to 11.30pm.....then went to parade to get high in KBOx until 4pm.......after that i went to seok fun's house with yen peng........not enough........we still went to GREENTOWN to celebrate angel's birthday and Christmas...........^^Still Wasn't enough??? haha......after the dinner.......me and pooi kuan......my chicken mother......went to her house again*until now.......i only got time to write my blog........hehe! yesterday was really a Excellent moment and memory for me! Thank You GuyS^^

Actually i wanna write in mandarin de.......but no "zhong wen zhi xing"......so nvm ler! hehe~~

These days i also couldn't sleep well.......often lack of sleep......and i need to hear some music or songs......turn around my body.......after 1 or 2 hour.......i could still remain awake!.......i hate this kind of feeling......tired but could not sleep.......is the worst thing ever!

I don't know whether this situation cause by him a not.......because i often think about him at night.......think about pass......think about now........think about future.......all memories also containing him.......there are all clean and beautiful scenarios........so maybe all this made me couldn't sleep at night ler.....haha! haih...........! last few days he still got choi me de......and we were like friends.......talked about anything......but since yesterday......he treated me cool_ly....he didnt reply me........or just replied one or two words.......i still remember! the word that he often reply is 'NO'......and the question that i often ask is "Are you working now?".......haih! i often think.......why we cannot go back to the original place??! I mean not couple but friend.........why he cannot accept this relationship? I know i hurt you before.........but can't you just forget about it and turn a new leaf??!

Is it really hard for you to learn how to forgive a person that hurt you before>/?!

I think maybe you should thank me!!!!!!!!! because not me........you wont turn into this kind of boy@! you will never learn how to hate someone like me.........you will never know how to get into gangster club...........you will never see naked woman! you will never get into art class...........you will never get the chance to hit people by chair! you will never ever know how hurt i am to make you change after this!!!!! I hate myself............i hate you! why..~~~~~~!!!!!!!!
I shouldn't break with you that time....!!!!! i shouldn't let you go that time! why i acted so stupidly! am i a mug??! Yes.i dO! i Am a Mug! Stupid fellow.....POOR Fellow!
If last time i didnt break up with you.....we will be a sweet couple now! you will be my lao gong zhai.......and i will be your lao po zhai! Is really SweeT^ i AM Too Stupid..........Sorry!..........Sorry^^CH*,,,,,,FOrgive ME PleasE! Forget About IT! Please fOrget about those Bad and worse...........and even worst memories.........
Remember only sweet and valuable of me.........PLEASE!

****THANK YOU****

3 days 2 nights at KL.....looking towards to Christmas!

2008-12-22T04:43:00.000-08:00

I came Back Alredy...^^Miss me?? i know you wont.....haha! but this trip i dont know whether it was a happy one or a desperate one........because sometimes i laugh......sometimes i cry,......hard to handle all these............but overall it was a nice trip lah**haha...........i am now looking towards to the christmas party that we organized our own de..........quite interesting.....because i can do what i like the most! it is SINGING^^* Shuang^haha~`
Haih......actually i was quite lazy to write blog liao......hehe! because these days my brothers always online.......make me no time to on.....so if on also play friendster or msn..........very hard to have some time for blog.....now making me lazy to write! haih........too bad!!

ok lah.......share some things with you all lah.......at KL leh......i had been to many shopping centres.......first day is sunway pyramid......the curve and one more i have forgotten.....haha! the next day we went to KL......first station was Berjaya Times Square.......after that pavilion and the last one we went back to subang jaya...........then of cause we visited subang parade lah! haha.......i bought 2 clothes,1 jean and 1 sweater.......i love the sweater very much.....i have decided to wear it on christmas that day......but bu she de.........so let see lah! haha.............erm!~i am glad that i now didnt hate ch anymore.......we were chatting during this 3 days 2 nights trip......he told me he was also at kl........his shop is located near times square only......he called me to find him and he will treat me eat..........but how could i do that??!! my aunties and cousins were all there.........haha!! later they will tell my parents that i go see Bf.......haih**Dissapointing! haih**

Haih......i have no time to continue writing lu........nvm! i got many photos......let you all see beh!

See is better than read........haha!

Form 5 FarewEll Party In MPH

2008-12-17T21:21:00.000-08:00

HAih!!!!! FarewELl Again........i dislike farewell party..........because i dont want them to go!
This year farewell is just one small part of the 5 days camp......although it was just few hours........we were all happy and got together...........we cried like babies on the stage..........singing my favourire songs........."ni men shi wo de xing guang"......"there'll be"..........and so on......~~
Gan Dong and sad!!!! wuwuwu............

Actually this badge of form 5 really treat us very good! Great seniors of cause!
We play together.......cry together.........work together........sometimes will have quarell a bit......but this doesnt matter!! because we are not the same......we will have our own opinion and idea...........so we cannot be perfectly no quarell or fight..............but after this...............we will learn! learn something new..........call "tolerate"........we are much developed now! we can lead our own juniors like you all........bring this band a fortune! A surprise and amaze! So...........Form 5 seniors! I really fond to all of you...........Love you ALL**

I hope you all will have a better and brighter future............and please dont forget us! come back often to see us!!!!!!!!

(changing feeling)

Haih! i have changed a new hp.......my favourite! i have waited for so long to see it's appearance! finally i succeed!!! yeah............my hp is W595.......i must remember! i bought it on 15th of december.....until now.....i think i have been using for 4 days only......haha! but i am not too happy lah.....because i want to buy green de! but the shop owner said just got blue......so i had no choice lah......but i am not regret..........because it is very yeng too! haha........

YEah! tomorrow i will go KL to shopping and of cause ice-skating..........very syok!!!!! haha.......
I am going to go there by train at around 4am tomorrow.......i think i will be quite tired......so after this i am going to sleep and take a nap first!!! haha............i went to kai ning's house on tuesday and wednesday.......played PS2 non-stop.......but something made me felt bad! it was because of him..!! i asked many people to lend me football...because i like to play football with kai ning! she is my sifu!!!! all of them also said dont have.....but fortunately ch said he got......he will lend me! then i asked him to bring out to his shop and i will go and take....he said ok! but that day,i sms him to bring it out...but no responce,so i decided to call him! but he dare to tell me he was still sleeping! then nvm,,,,i went to jusco first! but he whole day also like has died...no responce! i really very angry! then after watched movie...i called him again! he told me he was plaing golf.....ever go to his shop to help! i also dont know why he wants to tell lies! how can promise something but finally ends up with nothing de! how can this kind of people behave like this! i really very hate him/1! i think he wants to play fool on me only! because i treated him badly last time.....so this time i deserve it! i know.....so i let him play loh! and he also promised to call me.....i thought he wants to explain to me why he will like no responce,but it was also a lie! my heart had broken! this story telling me that he is not the ch that i met before! he is not true~ a bad boy !!!! hate hate hate^!!!!!!!!!

haih.....nvm lah! forget about it ba!! i think this two days,i just had 8 hours of sleeping time......haha! plus tomorrow i need to wake up at 2 something am..........sure will be filthy tired! so i sleep first lah! haha.......i will come back on sunday............so this will be my last post for this week! dont miss me ya^^haha...........BYE!!!!!!!

My BelovEd_JJ~

2008-12-13T08:17:00.000-08:00

YEah! Today i am quite happy.........
Although yesterday i was not able to go to parade to see my beloved JJ*........Down!
Today i finally got chance to "see" him.............in the Televisyen lah*
He is So cute! Chubby baby Face! A bit Podgy in shape lah^^ haha........But IIs Cute!
He is good in singing in LIVE......Sound So Nice and wArm.......!
When It was his turn to sing.......I was SO happy!
I took out my camera........got a great of view of the televisyen......capturing his photos non-stop........sometimes i was quite angry that my "lao yeh" camera was acting too slow that i always missed capturing great photoS!!!!! haTE^.........but i still able to capture many nice photos lah.......
Haih********actually it was really a big depression that i could'nt go to see him in parade! LIVE too leh!!!!!! Gik Sei ME LERRRRR^*~~~~~!!!!

After Mumbling about all this about JJ! Here comes the Love Story Of /MysElf!
(changing of feel~~)

Yeah!!!!!!!~~
Actually dont know is happy thing or despair thing lah......because i finally get closer to him now.......we got sms and call each other ler......i feel very happy and touch*
Because my dream came true!
We can still be friends although we had broken up!
This is great and i should appreciate what it is now! This can be the great thing for me right now......!
Today i saw him.......incidentally!
My sister was fetching me to KC Leong at 2.30pm........i Wanted to drink the "leong fen" and buy reload card,so i asked her to fetch me there........after drunk.......we passed by his shop.........when my sister turned to a corner......there was a small little jam........
Suddenly my sister shouted out! :'It is choong hou's car!!'
I was shocked and asked her :"really? where??!!!"
She said was the car in front of the taxi............the jam was caused by his car!!!!!! haha.......
I asked her how do you know it is his car?
She replied she saw his car before.....and she knew that the car has some disigns at the back mirror.......got some pink in colour words!
Then i alighted to buy reload card.........
After a few seconds.........i received his call.........but that time i was talking with my mother........so i missed answering it.......then a message came......
It was his message of cause!
He said my sister not pass in driving.......
I didnt understand..........so i asked him"what do you mean?"
then he replied......."I call you"
Tak sempat untuk saya hantar balik mesej dia...........panggilan "choong hou" telah mendering.....!
He told me that my sister was blocking his way to park his car......i shooted back him because it was he who caused the traffic jam.......because his car was halted in the middle of the road......causing the taxi and my sister's car couldn't pass through..........
After 1 minute of quarelling.......i had to end the conversation because i had reached kc leong there..........i was quite despair..........because serendipity gave us a chance to talk over the hp.........but just 1 minute! haih...........NVM! quite enough for me de lah**LIM QIN SHI!!~Dont Greedy!...........

Today............when we were sms-ing........he suddenly called me dear........
I didn't know whether he was testing me or really sent wrong message.......so i just ended it up with my way.---->>haha~! like that.........

Haih..........Sometimes i feel that he doesn't want to chat with me.........because sometimes he just replied me a few words.......making me very fish loh! like fan gan him............but sometimes he will say......"you are still like last time......so cute"........haih! i really dont know what is his mind thinking!!!!! If he can tell me exactly what he is feeling or thinking now...........i foresee myself will feel better than now..........get away from guessing.........and curiousing..........

WCH>>>>>>Tell Me What Is in Your Mind NOW^^^^!!!!!!!!!! ExactLY**

The Learning Of LIFE>>>

2008-12-09T20:52:00.000-08:00

It Has Been 2 weeks i didnt touch on my BLOG........sorry ya^^
these days i got 2 camps to attend.....the first one is cameron highlands leadership camp.......# days 2 nights......from the 1st december to 3rd december...then on 5th of december to 9th of december.....5 days 4 nights camp in school...........it was a band camp.......
First of all.....i need to talk about the cameron camp.......it was very interesting and really taught me a lots and lots of things,,,,,,perhaps it had been a very good experience for us.........
This camp taught us how to communicate with everyone around us.........
Actually we got 3 categories of human beings here.........
The first one is visual........then auditory..................finally kinestetic
What is mean by visual......??????
Visual is talked about people who use mainly their eyes to look or remember something........
They like to "see" things through their eyes........
They like to do planning and always like clean and tidy pictures........of cause i am not lah.haha!

The Next is Auditory..........
Auditory is talked about people that like to use mainly their ears to hear or remember things,*
They seldom look at the people who talk to her or him......but will use their ears to listen to them......everyone will say auditory people do not respect them because didnt lok at them when they are talking,but this is exactly onot like this!!!!!! And they like MUSIC very much......without music they cannot stur.....canot remember things and anything.......after this........i think you will know is talking about me!!!! wahaha^i am this kind of people! hehe....

the last one is Kinestetic.....
I dont know whether i got spell wrong a not lah! haha
This kind of people like to move and is very active.....
They cannot sit still for a long time.....they like to play and talk nonsense around........
This kind of people cannot do job that just sit in the office but can find jobs such as salesman and so on lah! hehe..........

In this camp.....i also learned team work and self-disiplin loh!
I ate the original onion.......! i had never ate before!!!! it was a challenging task for me! really very EXICTING......!!!!!!!
We had Played amazing race......the KIms game........Tennis ball game....team spy and so on! all these were meaningful!!!!! thank God that i got the chance to attend this camp!!!! I very hope that i got the chance to attend this camp again in the future!!!!!! hehe^^^^^

Finally is my band camp..........just ended yesterday............
We had oganized a farewell for form 5 students and a Grand Passing Out parade for them too........POP was a new and this year only organized one.......
We got concert of junior band and senior band...........Yesterday we had done our best on it^^^ and we had got praising from our fierce coach.....plus conductor>>>.MR.Ho!
I felt proud of all our band members mainly Form 5!!!!! They are extremely great seniors and friends too^So i hope you all will stay in the band and dont leave us forever!!!!! remember!!!!
I loVe You all GUyS!!!!! Jia YOu***

2008-11-24T17:50:00.000-08:00

Today is not as bright as i thought yesterday........but is just for the morning section lah......hehe!

Now i am free to write blog.....this is because i have made a stupid decision........and of cause i was influenced by my sister!

I didnt catch up the taxi.....! i was worried......i didnt know whether i should get on the taxi and go parade at 9.45am.......or wait for my brother to fetch me at 10.35am?? i was thinking......haih! but i had chosen to stay in home until 10.35am.......am i a mug???!!!!!!!!!!!

I shouldn't be here......i should have go to parade first! haih.........this is a waste/!!! need to waste petrol money.......if i go by taxi.......i can walk to may's father's shop.......that would be a good idea~!!!! haih..........it is just a stone throw distance!!!! esh......i had made a wrong decision!!!!!!!!

Actually i told my sister that i want to get on the taxi......but she disallowed me to do so......she said i must wait for brother...........haih!!!!!!! I regreted that i had listened to her!!! so bad of her.....haih.......** but how......cannot change the fact already...........must accept! haih...........next time i will be more careful in making any decision.....

After the Kbox..........
Now i am quite happy! because i Sung happily today.........although i had spent a lot on it...........but still is worthy!!!! wahaha.............i hope next time got time can call all my friends including my boys de friends lah......because they can sing boys' parts........no need we all girls to sing so low..........haha!

+今天.....取笑昨天和明天+

2008-11-24T01:12:00.000-08:00

Do you know why i put this as my tittle?
This is because today......i was thinking about yesterday and the coming day.....tomorrow!
今天取笑。。。。。是拿来笑的意思！因为昨天的好笑事，我都想起。。。。
至于取笑明天。。。。。那是因为我也幻想到明天好笑的画面！哈哈。。。。。。可笑吧？？

Yesterday was a great day!

That night i went over to my 干妈 house........because she was celebrating her birthday.......she had brought it forward because her daughter and her family needed to go to stay on Pulau Pinang for the whole DECEMBER~so she did a birthday party yesterday........

That night she had prepared something that were totally different than what she had done last time........for her grandsons and grandaughters' birthdays........haha~.....yesterday she cooked kari ayam,soup,roasted duck,small fried chicken and prawns,and so on......very tasty! If compared to last time......she will be cooking french fried,fried chickens,jelly,all these kinds of fast food......because she knows that children like to eat these.....haha~she is a caring person....right??^^ hehe~

Why yesterday was a happy day??

Is was because yesterday.....i learned a 绕口令.......it was funny if you repeat and repeat the melody.....hah!
This was tought by a 11 years old boy.......he is a tall and fat boy......taller than me.....and fatter than me.......he is a positively gross boy......because his weight is 80kg........amazing right?? haha~!!
He played with my sister"s hp.......he had recorded almost 10 sound clips yesterday.......he was playful and yet very innocent.....haha~!! He repeated the 绕口令 many times.......that was why i felt so funny......
Let's see what he said yesterday........................~~~~~~

Please Read It In The Form Of Cantonese........Except english words......hehe~

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肥婆 exercise
底裤不够 size
屁股爆完胎

haha.....actually it is really very difficult to understand in reading like this,......but as you see it~
it is funny,..........wahaha! yesterday we laughed with the mouths thouching the ears.........haha! really gao xiao.......The boy brought us a lot of enjoyment......! Thank you xiao di di~!! hehe.........

Ok! Finished.......now is time to talk about tomorrow.......why i will say tomorrow will be a funny day too??
This is because tomorrow i can go sing K.......I LIKE SINGING SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!
Plus tomorrow can eat MP! i like MP too.......by immerging the seaweed into the hot soup......it will be the most delicious food in the world......after that i can sing whatever i like.....so free inside a room! haha..........i foreseen that i will be very happy tomorrow......let's see how! haha

搞笑nya............

2008-11-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

Today i decided to write something special..........wahaha!

Do you notice that i am writing something that is funny and happy??

For this whole long weeks...........i were writing about something which were bad.....desperate......angry/.....foolish......disappointing.......and very loathe......

i thought all these will be my blog tittle and main points........but!!!!!!! wahaha*******

the first thing that i want to say is........

come on.....give me beat^^^

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(I LOVE AMC PERCUSSION......I AM FOND TO ALL OF YOU*)

Today is a great and grand day for percussion!!!! HURRAY~!!

Today......i want to write some happy things in my diary here......and is to be SAVED in my memory!

ALL percussionists are gao xiao.....haha!

8 of us formed a new group......names 八婆 group......haha!

Here is the AJK list of the 八婆 group 2008:

Kapten: Cheong Sui Cheng

Penolong Kapten: Audrey Yeap Shumin

Setiausaha: Ng Mun Yee

Bendahari: Lim Qin Shi

Ahli Istimewa: 1.Foo Ying Tong

2.Tang An Gel

3.Ashlee Phuah

4.Loh Weng Yee

haha.........very funny! today at "small genting" there..........we whole percussion......17 something people went to small genting......ate there..........chat at there! very syok.......although not all of them were involved......but i felt our hearts were holding together........GOOD FAMILY>>>>!!!!

The aunty who served us felt pressure! because all of us were simply luan luan called for drinks......here 3 milo,teh O......there orange juice.....pepsi and so on! really made aunty tou wen wen! haha.......after that we formed our ba po group.....haha! then called for frenchfried！3 rounds you know>???!!!!!!!! ate till full and die!!! haha!......our kapten and setiausaha called drinks again! i need to mention! Our Kapten had drunk 3 drinks.......and our setiausaha had drunk 2 drinks......wahaha!

Actually we are not only BA PO......but we are ghost eaters.......pocket eaters! We can eat more than what you can think! haha.........just to treat out section to eat things........must need more than RM 200++......this is because our ba po group's kapten is a pig! haha......dont believe it?? let see what is her record of eating.....

1.^PIZZA HUT^__>4 chicken wings,one 1000ml pepsi,half regular pizza,4 breads,cheese....(dont know got salad and mushroom soup a not)....RM 40++

2.^Small Genting^__>1 plate of noodles,3 drinks,share 3 plates of french fried......RM10++

She can eat so many things in just 1 round......really amazing! this is what just a percussionist can eat......if is whole percussion......i dont know what will be the COST? haha.......Dasyatnya!

You will be wondering........where is my “情情塔塔”......IS Here lah!!!! haha

i thought today i will be not free to think about him......but is true! i never think of him today! but i didnt realize that he is not just in my mind.......but in my soul and heart! Today,when we finished our lunch......we walked back to school......on the way.........i was laughing loudly.....as usual! we were still chatting about the BA PO group......and i wanted to call one of my junior which was walking in front of me! but weird thing happened!!

The name of him suddenly burst out from my mouth.....without hesitation.....i also dont know why! just in a moment!.....all my friends were looking at me......teasing me......"你叫他什么啊？？哈哈。。。。忠豪？？哈哈”......i was shocked by the name that just burst out from my mouth.......i couldnt understand.....why i didnt recall anything from him today......but his name could accidentally burst out.......??? it was weird.....and simply very discomfort.......

I know what is all about......

其实我说我要忘了。。。。。。。忘了他！是真的忘了。。。。。。可是是从另外一个地方，转到了另外一个地方。。。。。就好像是从脑里。。。。。去到了内心。。。。。。虽然记不起了，可是却不代表永远的消失。。。。。只是需要一些事，或是人。。。。。。就会把心中那把熄灭不掉的火给狠狠地燃烧起来！

忠豪。。。。。。这个名字，我告诉过你。。。。。。我好喜欢！因为很有亲切感！希望这个名字可以让你觉得骄傲。。。。。。其实我真的很不喜欢叫你 michael wong,..因为它。。。。一点都不像你！所以以后如果还有机会，我希望大家都能叫你忠豪，因为感觉好像跟你靠得很近。。。。。。很近！

今天一样的。。。。感触很多。。。。。姐姐也发我牢骚！说我怎么又写这么长。。。。。。可是我就是有什么，就写什么！自由发挥。。。。。嘻嘻！

结束了！！。。。。。。。最后我想祝天下有情人。。。。。。

其实只要心想事成就已经足够了。。。。。。。。

交叉=错？？？

2008-11-20T04:38:00.000-08:00

我今天的心也无法安静下来～～～

一直在想。。。。。想着他！

我是个爱美的女生。。。。。所以近视也不愿意戴眼镜，因为我的眼镜真的太旧了！像个婆婆一样。。。。。带老花眼镜！哪里可以呢？？咳！！！！！！

所以只要看到跟他差不多的男生经过。。。。。。。我都会多看几眼，希望是他本人。。。。
无论是矮过他的。。。。。瘦小过他的。。。。。没他那么帅的。。。。。没他那么有型的。。。。。。我统统都不放过，只是单纯地希望能捕捉到他的影子。。。。。。他潇洒的背影。。。。。。即使他不是我的。。。。。即使他不可能是我的。。。。。即使他终究不在是我的。。。。。。我也愿意只让我看到他。。。。。。对他微笑，我也满足了！应该是该自足了。。。。。。。因为是自己先放弃的。。。。。

听了上面的话。。。。大概已经知道我的心情
在给自己打心情报告的分数的话，我觉得我会给20分，因为今天我必须做出选择了。。。。。
我听我干哥说。。。。。。我现在的状况，有两种选择。。。。
1.继续爱下去
2.立刻中断这一切
我想都没想。。。。。我就答：“当然要爱下去！”。。。这也是还没听到真相时的想法。。。。。如果现在你问回我同样的问题。。。。。。我会先想。。。。。。然后答：“不能爱下去了！”
真相就是。。。。。。他的女朋友。。。。。。是我的朋友！怎能因为我一个人的爱。。。。而牺牲了两个相爱的人的爱呢？所以 ALL THESE MUST_____STOP! STOP! STOP!

就在今天。。。。这瞬间......这一闪那！我决定了。。。。。。我放弃了。。。。。。我绝望了！
我要跳出这个不属于我的浪漫。。。。。
+亲爱的+你走吧！
×对不起，我爱你×

i got something to say....

2008-11-19T00:37:00.000-08:00

Today is the worst day of these weeks......

今天心情很差叻！因为今天被两个婆婆骗钱，而且还得被爸爸骂～！
昨天我妈妈去补牙了，可是回到家就掉了，所以今天得出去再补一次。。。
原本可以舒舒服服呆在家的我，也得出去帮忙爸妈顾店---
我妈不在店的那段时间，发生了大事！真倒霉！
我店来了两个婆婆。。。。。他们点了两碗面，说等她们吃得差不多的时候，再来一碗斋面。。。。
等我端两碗面给她们时，她们说还有一碗斋面，所以先别收钱。。。。。
可是因为我记性差，刚好爸爸也忘了。。。。。等了一段时间后，我去收碗碟，才愕然发现那两位婆婆已经走了，也可以说是逃走吧。。。。。
我立刻马上告诉爸爸，他的表情也是马上变了！也是一脸错愕地看着那两位婆婆的桌位。。。然后才回过神来。。。说：“她们是不是还没给钱？？”
我答道：“是咯”
我爸爸又问：“你有看到她们往哪里走吗？？”
我先是遥遥头。。。。然手就用手指指了右边的方向。。。。：“好像是那边”
我爸便沿着那条路走去。。。。。想把她们给找回来。。。。。那当然是失败啦！！！！！
回来后的第一件事。。。。。就是骂得我半生死！然后就是把这件事宣泄出来，公告天下！
之后我的”日子" 就在取笑中度过。。。。。个个叔叔，个个婶婶都说：“好糗哦！被婆婆骗。。。。”
咳。。。。。真想找个洞把自己埋起来。。。。。避开众人的取笑目光！”
这个就不再多说了！还有一件事。。。。。。令我笑了，又哭了。。。。可是不算是哭笑不得。。。。哈哈！！笨蛋～

I got something to say.............

actually today.......i was mostly looking at "there"........his shop......
i wish i could see him.......although i might not know is him,......because i didnt wear spectacles......but i just wanna see him......face to face..........want to ask him whether his SPM is going on smoothly a not......but not a chance also..........

I HAS NOTHING TO SAY>...............

When i was back to normal......suddenly i saw a boy with uniform came towards me.......i didnt put much attention on him......because i had already forgotten what were i searching for.........
BUT!
when i was walking into the shop......he entered with the other door........we met like drawing a "cross" sign.......
what is meant by 向左走，向右走。。。。i think it was suitable to describe this........
Finally i saw him! he was quite tall.........pretty handsome.........and getting more and more cool! he was walking by holding a hp.......he came with one gang of friends......after that he ordered our mee........then when i was walking towards him to give him the chili........he talked to me..........i was frightened! my heart has dropped into my boat......i had never think that he will talk to me!
all these didnt came in a right place.....and a right position.....this is because i was sweating and dirty that time.....i didnt want to let him see me with this look! Ah Sum's look..........HAIH~~!!! but fate is playing fool of us.........never end! but i am still very appreciate this kind of fate.........because i really hope to see him or meet him again........if fate allowed more than this.........i will ask fate to give me one more chance to express my love to him again.........
.......Like what you said.......i am a 笨蛋！
i agree.......i am a fool....

today is my OK day

2008-11-17T07:57:00.001-08:00

hello....me again! i decided to use english to write today's diary.......erm!@ i dont know why....but just wanted to do so.......
why today is my OK day leh?? this is because today had no bad things or despair things happened to me....
today and tomorrow are my parents' off days.....so we whole family went out to eat breakfast......shopped in the tesco.....and had our dinner outside too!
haha.....i got a funny thing to share~
just now i played miss call with him.....
the first time.......it was a long and boring call......
then he answered......and i put up the call.......
Next,he called me.......and i didnt enquired......
after that.....i played again with a short and quick "du"
haha,.........it was a funny one.....
then he called again..........
these actions last for few minutes......and he never call again!
i dont know whether he is angry.....or he knows who am i~~
if he really knows..........then i will die^^^
if he doesn't know.........then i will die^^^too........haha~
what a childish game......haih.........

中。。。。心情

2008-11-15T06:42:00.001-08:00

今天啊。。。。我重读了自己这几个星期所写的日记。。。。。觉得都好短哦！！！
原来啊！！！自己用了很久的时间所写出来的东西，不用一下子。。。。。就能读完！
这也让我体会到，台上一分钟，台下十年功～～
今天我的心情不错。。。。。放晴！嘻嘻。。。。。
今天在学校学了好多，如果我说。。。。。身为一个‘专业”的乐队的一分子，我竟然在学校的一间课室，帮老师洗米，煮饭。。。。。甚者切菜，，那是不是天大的笑话叻？？哈哈～～～
不过我现在才知道。。。。原来饭不能用擦的！还有只要洗两次。。。就已经足够了。。。
可是我家人却是洗五六次以上，还要拼命地擦。。。。才可以送进口里，
老师却说：“洗这么多次，什么营养都洗走完咯！！怪不得你吃不大。。。。”
哈哈·。。。。我觉得好好笑哦。。。。。老师！你真特别，为了大家。。。竟然还因为不够青瓜而开车出去买～
不过你这样的动作。。。。。有时候也会令大家傻眼！！！哈哈·。。。。不过还是要谢谢您！！像我今天说的：“老师，您真伟大。。。”

我刚刚去完 parade,本想去吃寿司。。。。。但是晚餐吃太饱了！而且。。。。。sushi king 这个地方，令我有点无奈。。。。。毕竟哪里是。。。。。咳！！！可惜啊！可惜啊！
不过我还是回去吃的。。。。只因我是 SUSHI Fan!!!! wahaha.......

还有。。。。。今天真的非常搞笑！不过现在不得空写。。。。。迟些再谈吧！！！
Bye^^