Today Is What Day?

Erm..........
Yer!!!!!! My Computer has Spoilt!!!!1
I cannot online,play games,listen to music,upload photos,download songs and watch movie ANYMORE!!!!!!!
Not Syok punya!1............
luckily my brother has came back from college this few days...........if not my blog will be outdated!!! although i also dont think so now lah........haha!!!!!!

What to tell leh??
these days i got no story to share.............
Maybe my mood wasn't too bad and wasn't too good ba..............
so destructive plus instrutive equals to >>>_______________ FLAT!!!!!! haha

Yee!!! I want to ComplaIn er!!!!!!
Why F5 so many homework leh!!!!!!!!!!
My Homework always adding...............even though i am always doing,writing,copying,reading,and so on..........
But it never works~~!
Haih..........Guo Fen!!!


(Weak addition.......)
If it is going to happen again!.............
Commit suicide is the best way to solve all my troubles..............
But What is for sure............
This is not my style lah!!!!!!!!!!! haha...........


My style is ---->>>
Holding a mic........
Turn on the music..........
Sing loudly and rhythmically..........
I really want to sing K!!!!!!!!!! haha

CoLours........

Colour...............
if i were to ask you.........when you see green colour.......white colour........black colour..........any colour...........what will you think of??

if you were to ask me..........this would be my answers---->

White-children
GREEN-莲蓉
BLUE-sky
Orange-Oranges
Red-apple
Yellow-no comment.........haha
Pink-my shirt
Purple-my friend's shirt.........
Chocolate-my sister's shirt
Black-my keyboard

Do you wonder why no white colour??
Actually it is in front of green..........
i wrote something for it.........
but it just couldn't be seen.........

White is the basic colour.........
no white no any other colours........
this is what the meaning of "Children are as white as papers".........
We were once children!.........as white as,,,,,,,,,as pure as papers!
As for now..........
We are teenagers............

Teenagers..........
Years of tending to do bad things...........
Our minds are not as pure as before.........
Our thoughts are containing impurities.........
Then came the colours..........
Green,blue,black.yellow,orange,purple,pink,whatever..........
White has gone............
Same as now............
The white inside my post...........
Could Never Be Seen!

Truth and Fake........

　　　　 真真假假，假假真真；

　　　　 看真亦假，看假亦真；

　　　　说真非真，说假非假；

　　　　闻真似假，闻假似真；

　　　　想真不真，想假不假；

真实和虚假的真面目，到底有谁能够分辨？？

人类有五大器官，如；眼睛，耳朵，嘴巴，鼻子和眼眉毛，

可是五大器官加起来都很难分辨真与假，那是为什么呢？

那是因为真与假的定义太广了。。。。。。。。很难弄清楚！！

就拿这张照片来说，有谁能猜得出来有多少个人在图中？？

如果你猜对了。。。那就表示你能够分辨出真与假吗？

如果你猜不中。。。那也表示你不能分辨出真假的意境吗？

那根本就不成真比啊！！！

因为这个世界充满了真与假，可悲的是家却远远超越了真，战胜以及掩盖它！！

人的眼睛。。。。。看真亦假，看假亦真。。。。。

那是因为眼睛也有黑白两道。。。。那就是黑眼珠和白眼球。。。。。所以黑与白，真与假。。。。试问又怎能看得清呢？？

人的嘴巴。。。。。说真非真，说假非假。。。。。。

那是因为人总是口是心非。。。。。

想一套。。。。。说一套。。。。。

讲一套。。。。。做一套。。。。。

试问又怎能真假不异呢？

人的耳朵。。。。。闻真似真，闻假似假。。。。。。

那是因为人总是只听取好的。。。。。。虽然不是真的。。。。。但是他们都不会去理会。。。。。

如果是不好听的话。。。。。。虽然真实。。。。但是他们也挥毫不犹豫地欣然接受。。。。

这就是人类了。。。。。。。。。。　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

This is not a home........this is a house for ME~!

Yer! i Got a bit boring staying in the house........just a simple house.........lifeless.........do you all discover something from my blog???!!
I seldom use my favourite colour__GREEN__in my post liao...........WHY>>>???
Because i am not happy...........Why this is just a house? not My homE>>>???

Ordinary person like me.........i like to talk~~listen to music.......fool around..........SMILE..........GRIN...............and finally LAUGH............
but all these are slowly fading away.........now i think i am happier when i am in the school.........got friends.,.........got responsible teachers..........got band...........got my nice nice Bass Drum...........got my friends and my laughter..............is good to listen to them.........although they are included teasing......accusing.........complaining...........and so on! but they never spoilt our relationship........but they forged it..........thank you all of you*******
Love and miss you all~!!!~~! hehe...............**


House?? What is it all about???? What is it containing.?? what does it matter?!!!!!!!!!! WHat For~??
I Need A hOme!
Filthily...........BadLy..........~


House is just a place to stay...........but home is a place to live...........
House is just a place to stand.........but home is a place to sit.............
House is just a place to read..........but home is a place to study.......
House is just a place to lay............but home is a place to sleep........
House is just a place to cry...........but home is a place to laugh........
House is just a 4-walled compound filling with nothing.......
but a home is a opened air compound filling with full love and laughter........
Aren't they a big contrast??..........HAIH^^

Sister.........do you know you are changing.......??
I know...........and i understand,,,,,,,,,,,,i can forgive,............but i cannot accept??.........
You are growing older............and me too! but my mind NEVER!
your thinking is most likely to be different than mine!
Your thought..............Oh No! unbearable..........sometimes!
Behind you.......i see nothing!
HOw:???
I dont know how to think the same way as you............i dont know how to communicate with you................also,i dont know how to get close back with you!!!
OUR generation's gap is getting wider and wider as time passes.............
Dont know how to forge it back..............
SORRY^^^!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Band Camp 14th to 18th MaRcH~~~~So SyOk~!!!

I Love This band Camp So sO sO muCh^^.............ReallY Very HappY And ImPReSsIvE!!!!!!!!

The first time i be the conductor of the band..............the feeling was so shocking yet very amazing^~~! got people teased me also got people praised me..........but i like those funny funny conductor............not i give them beat............but i follow their's beat...............wAhhaha~!!!!!!

十七年后的今天.........我才知道.........原来当我哭泣后.........从镜子里看自己~~~是如此真实，清楚的.............!!!!




对不起............2个月后的第一文章..........就是写些不好的...........但如果你真的尝试.............你会看到自己非常清楚!!!!!!!! 为什么？这是因为眼泪只是模糊了你的视线.........但它让你看清你的心..........人们总是说心眼可以看到比眼睛更清楚.........因此，它已证明了我的话~~~!!!

今天我哭了.............因此，天空的颜色是黑色............haha!!!!! Do Not Worry^^i cried was not because i was not happy or sad.......it was just because of two movies.........i finished my exam today! so HappY**........then i got time to watched movie........the first movie was"钱不够用".........this movie talked about 1 old woman and her three sons.........whose we call 不孝子........看完这部电影后..........我才知道............有这样的人在这个世界上!!!!!!!! 太过分了!!!!!!! 故事的开始,他们的三个儿子和他们的妻子拜访他们的母亲,他们都坐在一起吃晚餐,他们有说有笑，但他们
只是喜欢取笑对方来获得快乐.......但是，这是他们的沟通方式..........!!!! 当时他们的母亲仍是健康的.......但是之后，他们的儿子有繁忙的工作...........缺乏照顾她..........他们只是随便给她吃药,这就是为什么他们的母亲最后会生病............以前他们总是利用他们的母亲......他们喜欢在道路上超速行驶........当让警察捉到,他们将用他们的母亲的licience来裁减分........或拿他们的母亲的钱.........

One day........when they noticed that their mother was suffering of 老人痴呆'证'.....their mother couldn't 'peep' properly....therefore they forced her to sit on the toilet bowl whole day,she sleeps in the kitchen....eats inside the toilet....shifts here and there to ensure that their friends or relatives would not see her/....really very cham! .....however.,after sometime...they found her mother was an abundant to them....so they decided to let her stay in the "rumah bahagia".....i can still remember how their sons lied her to get into the gate of "Rumah Bahagia"........and ran quickly once she stepped inside.......their mother called them loudly......"Ah Ong...!! I dont want to stay in here.....bring me go!!!!!"...but they had never turned to their mother's direction........just kept on running......!!!!! Finally they mother fell down and was hospitalised then!.........At the hospital.........her second son..........his daughter was being hospitalised too and his mother and daughter were needed the O- blood..........but the hospital just left one.........so without any hesitation........the second son had chosen to save her daughter......he said...:"What for saving mother??!!!! she is old and is waiting to die only......",but my daughter is still young and has great future"..........but his two brothers were not agreed with him........they were arguing and grabbing the blood just right in front of their mother's bed.......one drop of tears rolled down from her face........then she pulled out her 'gas delivering tube'..........and sacrificed herself to save her grandchildren...........haih!!!!!! this is just the summary of the whole movie.........i already beh tahan liao!!!!!!!! really very very very cham!!!!!!!!!!!! haih/............i hope in reality........this kind of people will not appear! because they are the rubbish among the community.........they are sisa-sisa makanan! they are 饼碎!!!!!!!!!!! they shouldn't have been in this world!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry To sAy That^^haih...........still got one more sad movie to tell leh...........!!!!!! but now is already 2am...........i think i should continue in my next post............haha!

What /i Want to Say Is about tears de leh...........why i went so far away.......talking about movie geh???!!!!!!!!!! whahaha..............Sho Po Ah^^ok lah.........i will continue to tell the next movie next time............but i think i have no time to write de lah........critical year for me!!!!!!!! wahaha............

^^^___母爱.......真伟大___^^^

怎样大???

>>>>> *^^大于天空^^* <<<<<

容忍..........将导致气喘??

今天天空的颜色是棕色的..........


为什么？


那是因为我不快乐..........


为什么我会提出这个题目？


那是因为我感受到~~


我不知道我是否立场太坚定.........

把自己逼疯了。。。。

可是我绝对认为容忍是会导致气喘的。。。。。因为它发生在我身上！！




前几天，还没放假的时候。。。。。。。没记错的话，应该是星期四。。。。。我肯定不会记错！因为那天还我连续倒霉了很多很多*年*。。。。。。



故事从我的两个学校老师开始。。。。。我称她们为老师甲和老师丙~~

老师甲今天突然“心血来潮”。。。。。。无端端借了另外一个老师的节。。来跟我们谈我们班的“终生大事”。。。。。。。她并不是这么讨人喜欢。。。。。所以我们也是随便敷衍她便算了。。。。。。。。可是她却得尺进里。。。。。。竟然说个没完没了！导致我们班迟到去老师丙的课。。。。。。她却还假淅淅地推卸责任。。。。。。说是我们自己不愿下去！真令人狰！！！！！！恨不得把她丢进马桶，拉水，把她冲到尼洛江去！！！！！



等到我们去到老师丙那里。。。。。老师丙的脸色已经黑得不得了！她自责我们为什么常常犯同样的错。。。。。明知道她不喜欢学生迟到。。。。。。她还所只要在犯多一次。。。。下次她就不教书，只是用屁股对着我们。。。。。。随便乱来。。。。。。然后每次只是抄东西。。。。。。。其实这一招老师丙去年也有用过。。。。。所以我真的很害怕。。。。

我们便跟她解释。。。。。可是她说她不要听！！！这时整班一起闹轰轰起来。。。。。。全部都在讨论或是批评老师甲。。。。。害人害己！真不应该！！！！！气死人了！！



看到这种画面。。。。。我真的好害怕！因为我真的很喜欢上老师丙的课。。。。。。如果我们班在继续吵下去。。。。。。老师丙必定会实行去年的教学方式。。。。。。我真的很想拍桌子，站起来，，，喊一句：“不要再吵了！”。。。可是我没有这种勇气。。。。。没有这种胆量。。。。。。毕竟我在班上，什么地位身份也没有。。。。。。怎能发威呢？？~~



结果我忍气吞声。。。。。静静地不出声，只是盯着那些吵死人的“大苍蝇”。。。。。。希望她们能明白忍一时，风平浪静的道理。。。。。。咳！！！！为什么她们就不能看一看老师丙的脸色做人吗？？ 在这么尴尬的场面还敢说话的人。。。。。。真是令我佩服的五体投地！！！！！折服。。。。。折服啊！！！！！咳。。。。。。糟糕！





第二部分是昨天发生的。。。。。。。也是我一辈子都无法忘怀的噩梦！

昨天本来是很开心的。。。。。。上学的最后一天。。。。。舒舒服服的上课。。。。。高高兴兴的放学。。。。放学后还可以去麦当劳吃我在2009年的第一杯冰淇淋。。。。。。真是爽到极点!!!!!!



但是补习后.........我的人生有了一个很大的转变.........~~
放学了.........6.15pm........我在楼下等车........我姐姐她 6.30pm 才放学,所以我就得等多以下.....
则到 6.45pm 了,我姐都还不见踪影.........我开始慌了/!!
车一直地停了又开走.........我身边的人也越来越少了..........剩下两个女生.......
她是个高高瘦瘦的女孩........长长的头发.........黑黑的.........看起来等的一脸不耐烦......所以她气冲冲地走去隔了一间店远的电话亭打电话..........远处正着急的我......也听到她骂对方的声音.......不过换成是我.......应该没那么理直气壮吧??!!


我心想.........应该是塞车吧........等到七点......如果还没来,才打电话吧!!~

我看着我的手表..........分针和秒针好像在赛跑一样.........没一会儿..........七点到了!
我忍不住了.......便去打电话给父母......问姐姐为什么还没来?? 我好害怕是发生了什么意外.........非常紧张!!~

其实,我真的好害怕.........因为我中一的时候.........曾经发生过非常可怕的过去.........导致我现在非常害怕一个人独自等车.........看见身边一个又一个走过的马来男人..........真的令我感到十分恐惧!!!
他们的眼神很诡异........不停地打量着我......手中拿着的烟蒂........吐出来的烟圈.........经过我身边时.......令我作呕!!!!!!! 更何况最后只剩下我一人..........顿时,我哭了.......眼泪含在眼里......不敢出声......不敢流出来.......~~ 我觉得我的呼吸变得很重.........忍得我快要喘不过气来!


我看看手表..........七点十五分了......我等了足足一个小时.........
我忍着的眼泪堆积在眼里..........多的模糊了我的视线........停在我眼前的车辆.........我已经没办法确定了.........我忍得好辛苦.........我站得好累...........我好想睡了!

突然我听见了熟悉的引擎声.........是我姐的车........绝没错!!!!!
我踩着乏力的脚印.........上了车...........我只感觉到很重的内疚味..........我姐拼命得跟我道歉....我没说话...........但忍了许久的眼泪......流了下来........
我并不是怪她.............而是我被吓哭了.........吓死了!
我的心停止了...........第二次!!~~

从一开始就没有必要隐藏.............

这是我第27个著作............

A black SpoT InsiDe My HeaRt~~

谢谢大家的支持...........我很震惊.............也非常的意外!!!!^^

我的部落格从一个孤立的世界...............仅有我自己的小世界.............扩张到大家也知道的评论地方.........虽然我很震惊...............但是我想.............我喜欢独自简单的写...........乱乱的写..........关于我的感觉.........情绪..........等等..........但也不希望让如此多的人在我的部落格上,看见这么多人在这里留下脚印+++haih./..............but nvm lah! As loNg as is still the same...........i write what i want to write........i display what i want to see.........i upload what i want to hear and i express what i want to tell IN MY OWN WAY!!!!!!!!!!! I Do liKe BloG***GamBatEH!!!!!!!!!


What i want to tell here??? i also quite blur..........maybe i should put a timetable here.......first!

MONDAY 2.00pm-5.00pm Band Practice
6.00pm-7.30pm English Tuition
Tuesday 2.30pm-5.30pm Malay Tuition
Wednesday 3.00pm-5.15pm Physics Tuition
6.00pm-7.30pm English Tuition
Thursday 3.00pm-5.00pm Chemistry Tuition
Friday 3.45pm-6.15pm Add Maths Tuition
Saturday 8.00am-1.00pm Band Practice

*****Sunday is the only day that is free! haha............But i still quite ok with this form 5 timetable.........i feel comfortable and appreciate what i got now...........!!~~Form 5 is a challenging year for all people.............even though now is only January..........but i always sense that SPM is just around the corner............maybe after Chinese New Year...............or maybe just after the March test..........after Mid-year test...........or just after Hantu day............or maybe is on 17th of november............??????? Really sO fAst.............Time FlieS wHEn We aRe haVing Fun............if dont want SPM to reach so fast.............so we better stop smilling from this second.............and dont have fun in this whole year.............haha!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~call us dont smile or laugh is more difficult than SPM lah,...........HEHE^^^^**

I like Green..................So put Back Ba~!!!
Erm...............I hope I can Cope With Form 5 Stress And Miss Heong's PressUre lah...........Today just let her punished..........very scare already!!!!!!! Hope I will Not ForgEt to bring Books,ForgEt to dO hoMewOrk..........And So On Lah!!!!!!!!! Maybe i should Write aBout My fear Feeling InsiDe the 周记...............haha!!!!!!! Attend Miss Heong Class Is A fEar Factor For me..............i Have Attended For 3 times already..............that means i have brek the record!!!!!!!! haha.........If i think i can,,,,,,,,,,i CAN^^^^so try to deal with the stress~~JIa YOu LIm QIn SHI~~


Maybe this is the last post for this month.............i said MA?YBE/.............haha! so dont try to spot my words ya!!!!!!! ok lah.............Thank You For Everyone of you that reads my blog and give me support.............either in physical or mental.............THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN^

我认为这是结束.......但实际上这只是开始

今天是天灰灰的星期五........也是最奇怪的一天......
本以为昨天的部落格将是我最后一个邮件,突然我感觉想写多一点...........因为我想哭诉,haha..........其实今天有客人会到我家住2天........刚巧我会去我朋友家过夜.......因此，我不用看到我的大哥哥的朋友.........尽管他将留在我的房子为2天啦..........but also will not need to face "her" for so long.....haha! my jie jie is more cham than me..........need to face his friend.........haih!!!!!!


我想知道她是否是我大哥的女朋友............其实我的大哥刚刚和他的女朋友分手,,,,,,,,之后过了几天......then bring a girl back home to stay here.........this really make us feel weird............haih!!!!!!!

I thought christmas and new year will be the better days for couples or families..........somehow...........i dont know how..........my friend and my brother also just broke up with their life partner.........and the worst...........is until now i also have no BF...........haha!! joking~~haih...........why so cham geh???~~~!!! my friend broke up with her bf during christmas.......and my brother broke up with his gf during new year...........WHY WANT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!! 他们两个是我最看好的两对.................真的是让我大跌眼镜.........也让我看灰了世界..........但我知道爱仍将继续.................love will still go on...........也许他们跟我有相同对爱的看法................只要换一个方式的爱.............或许爱情会更加强大...............但我仍然希望有情人终成娟淑!!!!!!!! GAMBATEH~!!


HAha.........this maybe is my last ler gua?? because tomorrow i will not have time to write............maybe sunday still will write gua...........haha!!!~~HAPPY 2009 and Couples can In Love till tHe eNd Of The WorlD>......SaraNg HaEyO~^^