Sunday, October 26, 2014

Creating memories.....

Nowadays i am quite obsessed on vampire diaries....
i heard these words.....
"Creating memories"....
While you are in 18...create memories for the time being......
while you are in 22...build memories and hold on to it....
i am 22 now....
and i shall be listening taylor swift- 22.....
but i that song is really not my thing...
so.....
i think i will rather jot down and make a record on my created memories in my lovely little fanstasy world...."My Blog"....

Today is an amazing day....
i went to Kota kinabalu park for a visit....
although first thing came to my thought was about adventurous activities in the forest again....
so i kind of wearing long track bottom and sport shoes...
but when i reached school....
most of them are wearing jeans, cotton pants and i spotted one in slippers too...
haha! i was like...."Why everybody dressed up like unprepared for activities in the forest"
but nothing i can done...
i was already in the school...haha~
luckily i got my boy who is always by my side....
after waited for 1 hour....The bus arrived....
we got up to the bus and basically our journey had BEGUN~

Today is a wonderful day....
my boy was all along with me....
sticked with me....
capturing photos of me....
smiling at me....
i could sense his hapiness and excitement throughout the tip.....
maybe this wonderful trip with it's beautiful and awesome scenaries made him could not let go of his Hp...and he just couldnt let his eyes blink....so afraid of missing any precious moments with the flowers, people and one in a blue moon scenaries....
He was so Cute and Adorable the whole day....
hehe~~when i was thinking of him while i am looking at him right now in his sleep....
i cant stop smiling....
like an idiot!!
i Love him....
really do~~
Thank you doi doi....
for being so in love with me too!!
i shall give you a kiss right this moment....
hehe~~

you are so not a pig when you are sleeping....
you should not have woke up!! my dear....
not purposely want to discrupt you while you are sleping de....
sorry pig pig zhu!!
hehe...

Today is a precious day....
The trip to Kota Kinabalu park was so nice....
fresh and cooling weather....
spent my day there like is on a vacation....
i am not used to outings....
like to stay at home....
stay calmly....
enjoy searching for recipe to learn how to cook something new for all my loved one in the house....
i love them all...
slowly adapting....
slowly enjoying life....
slowly appreciate everything in my life....
slowly get used of unfavourable things....
i hope that today's feeling will last longer....
Oh ya!!
suddenly remembered the video call from boh yee tonight...
shocked!
and i saw her mother and two dogs....
one is BEBE!!
oh my god...
she is damn cute!!
very miss it....
feeled like touching and hugging her that time!! haih....
but i couldnt!!
iF i can take care of a dog like her next time....
i will try my best to look after it!!

I am not alone....
i am in love all the time!!
love from friends...coursemates...housemates....my doi doi and my beloved sister!
hehe....
Thank you for taking care of me...be healthy around me...and always spend quality time with me together!!
Now i am 22....
and i hope i still can have this feeling when i am 44...66...and so on~~
Love you all....
i Appreciate!!
Thank you**














Saturday, October 11, 2014

大风狂雨。。。打在心里

最近沙巴这里一直下大雨。。。。
晚上下着雨睡着。。。。早上响着雷起床。。。。
看到外面的风景被风雨遮掩。。。。
我的心情也阴沉了下来~~
最近好像没什么好事情发生。。。。
离离合合。。。。
聚聚散散。。。。
有时候真的想放弃一切。。。。
但是有时候却又会不顾一切,义无反顾地再给他机会~~
心情很矛盾。。。。。
和看着外面的雨水一样。。。。
我想让你稀里哗啦地下个不停。。。让你发泄内心的一切。。。。。
但是我却不想你一直下雨,把埋怨和悲伤都往这世间的人身上砸去~~
被雨影响的人们。。。。狼狈的影子~~都让我觉得无奈。。。。
我很想脱离这种爱恨交错的感觉。。。。
回到过去不好吗??

你好像变了。。。。
觉得我霸道,没耐心听我说话。。。。
狂躁,没自信。。。。
我们一时很恩爱。。。。但是后来留下的眼泪。。。。
这瞬间好像转得特别得快。。。。
现在回想起。。。。就好像喜怒无常一样~~
我知道我的性格如此。。。。
但是以前到现在。。。我都没有变。。。。
反倒是你~~
你受不了是吗??
你精神压力很大是吗??
是我让你变成这样的吗??
我很抱歉。。。
不过我就是这样。。。。。
你的背叛。。。。你没有实现的承诺。。。。。你忽视的感受。。。你忽略的我。。。。
也让我对你越来越没安全感了~~
我知道你要的是稳定,安稳,的爱情。。。。
但是安稳不表示你可以不再积极了解我,不再花心思去爱我。。。。
还有不要隐瞒我!!
你和她的约会让我无法忘怀。。。。
对你来说可能只是小意外。。。。
但是在我眼里。。。。。我就真的那么渺小而已。。。。
不要放大我的宽容,我的谅解。。。。
无论多少次解释,多少次道歉。。。。。
我就算原谅了。。。。但是只要我一想起。。。。我真的很生气和难过。。。。
可以拜托不要再这样对我吗??

我虽然嘴巴很贱。。。。
喜欢说狠话。。。。
但是我的内心真的是无比脆弱。。。。
你的一举一动。。。。我把它们看在眼里。。。。都会无限量放大~~
你对我来说真的太重要了。。。。
我不想最后一次说的分手。。。变成是永恒的结局~~
希望你能明白。。。。。