我看不起我自己.......

我也不知道为什么我今天以此作为我的头衔........事实上我的中文zhi星无法运作,所以我从 google 里输入单词然后一个接一个地放在这里,所以也许会有点怪怪的........haha! 所以非常不便.....haih!!!!!



其实我真的想用中文来写部落ge.......because words in mandarin are more "colourful and meaningful" for me/.........but it is really hard to type one by one in google search........i wanna die!!!!! haih~~on 30th of december......that day was my parent's off day.........they brought us to "YOk Fok Moon" to eat dim sum...........and choong hou's shop is located opposite of "yok fok mon".......actually i didnt think that i will saw him or 碰上......结果命运耍了我们.........我已经向上帝祈祷.........说希望他能忘掉我...........希望我能成功地隐藏自己..........But What Is fate!!!!!!!!! Made us could not take it easy...........made us could not forget it............GO DIE LAH^^~!!!!!!! haih.......



可是是他先看见我的,过了一段时间...............我收到他的短信..............在SMS里...........he said.......:"eat dim sum ah? haha"...........then i felt shock.........to receive his message........but that time i havent reloaded........so couldn't reply him.........after that.......i reveived the second message..........he said:' why didnt reply me geh? angry me already??"...........
I decided to reply him and say YES............because he always treat me 忽冷忽热,让我止息.........但现在像感觉对不起我一样........这算什么妈??!!


天啊!!!! 为什么这样对待我!!!!! 为什么不干脆的放弃??!!!!! 为什么??!!!!! 告诉我啊! 笨蛋! 傻瓜! 愚蠢的笨蛋!!!!! 气死我了!!!!!!!!!!!


其实不提不表示不喜欢...........我仍然非常喜欢你,但是是另一种方法的喜欢.........是相同于爱........尽管是另一种途径..........但它仍然是喜欢与爱........因此你不能说我不喜欢你,不爱你! 而是不同的共同..........共识..............所以我爱你!!!!!~~~


This is my first post for this year 2009..........and my last post for the year 2008..........Goodbye to 2008 and welcome to 2009!!!!!! i hope this year will be different and challenging year for me! SPM is my friend for this year and i decided to make good friend with it to make 2009 a success in my life.........WONG CHOONG HOU>......./remember i am not giving you up..........i am just changing my miss and love into a different way..............LOve will still go on.............and love will stop until i am not LIM QIN SHI anymore.............is it ok?? If you think you can,then you really can! JIA YOU**Sarang HaeYO~!



GOODBYE To 2008~~
WelComE to 2009~~


GooDbYE to MichAel Wong~~
WelComE to WonG ChOOng HoU~~


GoodByE tO cLoeY liM~~
WelCoMe tO LIm qIn sHi~~


gOodBye tO PMR~~
wElComE To SPM~~


GoOdbYe tO F4~~
WELcome TO F5~~


GoodbYe TO PeraK StAdIuM~~
wELcOmE to KL WorLD MarChIng BAnD~~

Foreseeing my FUTURE~~

Today i am not feeling good.......
I didnt online for few days.....and i have missed hwee mein's comment.......she told me she has to go NS on 28th december........but today only i online..............i saw her message......but it was too LATE!

I has missed the change to wish her good luck.......i has missed the chance to chat with her for the last time......now she has gone...........and i feel like "dui bu qi" her........now i really scrambling~! Really sorry HWee MeIn!~~Hope you can come back here with smilling face and will not have any incident that happens to you! JIA YOU**

School is going to reopen soon.........so today me and my sister will start cleaning up the rooms.......and gotong royong like that lah........very happy is tomorrow and totomorrow is my parent's off days......we can go out to eat and shopping! yeah^^ happy......hehe~! erm........these days i also didnt find him to chat lu......i think i have woke up! If he doesn't want to forgive me or chat with me.....then i know i should hide myself....dont let him see me!........then he will slowly forget the appearance LIM QIN SHI loh.........AM i clever leh?? hehe........WOng Choong Hou* this is the chance that GOD gave me to really stop myself from jumping down to a BIg huge Hole! and GOd also gave you the chance to forget the unhappy things........so we both must jia you! Bekerjasama.........and Work together to break this silly relationship........

**Wong Choong Hou**

The last few words that i wanna tell you is you must take care of yourself......stop hurting yourself and others like june......studying hard in your segi college and your lovely course.........Bussiness.......JIA YOU*

The last...........>>>>>>>





~I LOVE YOU~

Time Flies when We aRe having FUN*

Yesterday was my first time to celebrate christmas!

I went steven tuition at 9am to 11.30pm.....then went to parade to get high in KBOx until 4pm.......after that i went to seok fun's house with yen peng........not enough........we still went to GREENTOWN to celebrate angel's birthday and Christmas...........^^Still Wasn't enough??? haha......after the dinner.......me and pooi kuan......my chicken mother......went to her house again*until now.......i only got time to write my blog........hehe! yesterday was really a Excellent moment and memory for me! Thank You GuyS^^



Actually i wanna write in mandarin de.......but no "zhong wen zhi xing"......so nvm ler! hehe~~

These days i also couldn't sleep well.......often lack of sleep......and i need to hear some music or songs......turn around my body.......after 1 or 2 hour.......i could still remain awake!.......i hate this kind of feeling......tired but could not sleep.......is the worst thing ever!



I don't know whether this situation cause by him a not.......because i often think about him at night.......think about pass......think about now........think about future.......all memories also containing him.......there are all clean and beautiful scenarios........so maybe all this made me couldn't sleep at night ler.....haha! haih...........! last few days he still got choi me de......and we were like friends.......talked about anything......but since yesterday......he treated me cool_ly....he didnt reply me........or just replied one or two words.......i still remember! the word that he often reply is 'NO'......and the question that i often ask is "Are you working now?".......haih! i often think.......why we cannot go back to the original place??! I mean not couple but friend.........why he cannot accept this relationship? I know i hurt you before.........but can't you just forget about it and turn a new leaf??!



Is it really hard for you to learn how to forgive a person that hurt you before>/?!

I think maybe you should thank me!!!!!!!!! because not me........you wont turn into this kind of boy@! you will never learn how to hate someone like me.........you will never know how to get into gangster club...........you will never see naked woman! you will never get into art class...........you will never get the chance to hit people by chair! you will never ever know how hurt i am to make you change after this!!!!! I hate myself............i hate you! why..~~~~~~!!!!!!!!
I shouldn't break with you that time....!!!!! i shouldn't let you go that time! why i acted so stupidly! am i a mug??! Yes.i dO! i Am a Mug! Stupid fellow.....POOR Fellow!
If last time i didnt break up with you.....we will be a sweet couple now! you will be my lao gong zhai.......and i will be your lao po zhai! Is really SweeT^ i AM Too Stupid..........Sorry!..........Sorry^^CH*,,,,,,FOrgive ME PleasE! Forget About IT! Please fOrget about those Bad and worse...........and even worst memories.........
Remember only sweet and valuable of me.........PLEASE!


****THANK YOU****

3 days 2 nights at KL.....looking towards to Christmas!

I came Back Alredy...^^Miss me?? i know you wont.....haha! but this trip i dont know whether it was a happy one or a desperate one........because sometimes i laugh......sometimes i cry,......hard to handle all these............but overall it was a nice trip lah**haha...........i am now looking towards to the christmas party that we organized our own de..........quite interesting.....because i can do what i like the most! it is SINGING^^* Shuang^haha~`
Haih......actually i was quite lazy to write blog liao......hehe! because these days my brothers always online.......make me no time to on.....so if on also play friendster or msn..........very hard to have some time for blog.....now making me lazy to write! haih........too bad!!

ok lah.......share some things with you all lah.......at KL leh......i had been to many shopping centres.......first day is sunway pyramid......the curve and one more i have forgotten.....haha! the next day we went to KL......first station was Berjaya Times Square.......after that pavilion and the last one we went back to subang jaya...........then of cause we visited subang parade lah! haha.......i bought 2 clothes,1 jean and 1 sweater.......i love the sweater very much.....i have decided to wear it on christmas that day......but bu she de.........so let see lah! haha.............erm!~i am glad that i now didnt hate ch anymore.......we were chatting during this 3 days 2 nights trip......he told me he was also at kl........his shop is located near times square only......he called me to find him and he will treat me eat..........but how could i do that??!! my aunties and cousins were all there.........haha!! later they will tell my parents that i go see Bf.......haih**Dissapointing! haih**


Haih......i have no time to continue writing lu........nvm! i got many photos......let you all see beh!

See is better than read........haha!

Form 5 FarewEll Party In MPH

HAih!!!!! FarewELl Again........i dislike farewell party..........because i dont want them to go!
This year farewell is just one small part of the 5 days camp......although it was just few hours........we were all happy and got together...........we cried like babies on the stage..........singing my favourire songs........."ni men shi wo de xing guang"......"there'll be"..........and so on......~~
Gan Dong and sad!!!! wuwuwu............

Actually this badge of form 5 really treat us very good! Great seniors of cause!
We play together.......cry together.........work together........sometimes will have quarell a bit......but this doesnt matter!! because we are not the same......we will have our own opinion and idea...........so we cannot be perfectly no quarell or fight..............but after this...............we will learn! learn something new..........call "tolerate"........we are much developed now! we can lead our own juniors like you all........bring this band a fortune! A surprise and amaze! So...........Form 5 seniors! I really fond to all of you...........Love you ALL**

I hope you all will have a better and brighter future............and please dont forget us! come back often to see us!!!!!!!!

(changing feeling)

Haih! i have changed a new hp.......my favourite! i have waited for so long to see it's appearance! finally i succeed!!! yeah............my hp is W595.......i must remember! i bought it on 15th of december.....until now.....i think i have been using for 4 days only......haha! but i am not too happy lah.....because i want to buy green de! but the shop owner said just got blue......so i had no choice lah......but i am not regret..........because it is very yeng too! haha........


YEah! tomorrow i will go KL to shopping and of cause ice-skating..........very syok!!!!! haha.......
I am going to go there by train at around 4am tomorrow.......i think i will be quite tired......so after this i am going to sleep and take a nap first!!! haha............i went to kai ning's house on tuesday and wednesday.......played PS2 non-stop.......but something made me felt bad! it was because of him..!! i asked many people to lend me football...because i like to play football with kai ning! she is my sifu!!!! all of them also said dont have.....but fortunately ch said he got......he will lend me! then i asked him to bring out to his shop and i will go and take....he said ok! but that day,i sms him to bring it out...but no responce,so i decided to call him! but he dare to tell me he was still sleeping! then nvm,,,,i went to jusco first! but he whole day also like has died...no responce! i really very angry! then after watched movie...i called him again! he told me he was plaing golf.....ever go to his shop to help! i also dont know why he wants to tell lies! how can promise something but finally ends up with nothing de! how can this kind of people behave like this! i really very hate him/1! i think he wants to play fool on me only! because i treated him badly last time.....so this time i deserve it! i know.....so i let him play loh! and he also promised to call me.....i thought he wants to explain to me why he will like no responce,but it was also a lie! my heart had broken! this story telling me that he is not the ch that i met before! he is not true~ a bad boy !!!! hate hate hate^!!!!!!!!!


haih.....nvm lah! forget about it ba!! i think this two days,i just had 8 hours of sleeping time......haha! plus tomorrow i need to wake up at 2 something am..........sure will be filthy tired! so i sleep first lah! haha.......i will come back on sunday............so this will be my last post for this week! dont miss me ya^^haha...........BYE!!!!!!!

My BelovEd_JJ~

YEah! Today i am quite happy.........
Although yesterday i was not able to go to parade to see my beloved JJ*........Down!
Today i finally got chance to "see" him.............in the Televisyen lah*
He is So cute! Chubby baby Face! A bit Podgy in shape lah^^ haha........But IIs Cute!
He is good in singing in LIVE......Sound So Nice and wArm.......!
When It was his turn to sing.......I was SO happy!
I took out my camera........got a great of view of the televisyen......capturing his photos non-stop........sometimes i was quite angry that my "lao yeh" camera was acting too slow that i always missed capturing great photoS!!!!! haTE^.........but i still able to capture many nice photos lah.......
Haih********actually it was really a big depression that i could'nt go to see him in parade! LIVE too leh!!!!!! Gik Sei ME LERRRRR^*~~~~~!!!!

After Mumbling about all this about JJ! Here comes the Love Story Of /MysElf!
(changing of feel~~)


Yeah!!!!!!!~~
Actually dont know is happy thing or despair thing lah......because i finally get closer to him now.......we got sms and call each other ler......i feel very happy and touch*
Because my dream came true!
We can still be friends although we had broken up!
This is great and i should appreciate what it is now! This can be the great thing for me right now......!
Today i saw him.......incidentally!
My sister was fetching me to KC Leong at 2.30pm........i Wanted to drink the "leong fen" and buy reload card,so i asked her to fetch me there........after drunk.......we passed by his shop.........when my sister turned to a corner......there was a small little jam........
Suddenly my sister shouted out! :'It is choong hou's car!!'
I was shocked and asked her :"really? where??!!!"
She said was the car in front of the taxi............the jam was caused by his car!!!!!! haha.......
I asked her how do you know it is his car?
She replied she saw his car before.....and she knew that the car has some disigns at the back mirror.......got some pink in colour words!
Then i alighted to buy reload card.........
After a few seconds.........i received his call.........but that time i was talking with my mother........so i missed answering it.......then a message came......
It was his message of cause!
He said my sister not pass in driving.......
I didnt understand..........so i asked him"what do you mean?"
then he replied......."I call you"
Tak sempat untuk saya hantar balik mesej dia...........panggilan "choong hou" telah mendering.....!
He told me that my sister was blocking his way to park his car......i shooted back him because it was he who caused the traffic jam.......because his car was halted in the middle of the road......causing the taxi and my sister's car couldn't pass through..........
After 1 minute of quarelling.......i had to end the conversation because i had reached kc leong there..........i was quite despair..........because serendipity gave us a chance to talk over the hp.........but just 1 minute! haih...........NVM! quite enough for me de lah**LIM QIN SHI!!~Dont Greedy!...........

Today............when we were sms-ing........he suddenly called me dear........
I didn't know whether he was testing me or really sent wrong message.......so i just ended it up with my way.---->>haha~! like that.........

Haih..........Sometimes i feel that he doesn't want to chat with me.........because sometimes he just replied me a few words.......making me very fish loh! like fan gan him............but sometimes he will say......"you are still like last time......so cute"........haih! i really dont know what is his mind thinking!!!!! If he can tell me exactly what he is feeling or thinking now...........i foresee myself will feel better than now..........get away from guessing.........and curiousing..........

WCH>>>>>>Tell Me What Is in Your Mind NOW^^^^!!!!!!!!!! ExactLY**

The Learning Of LIFE>>>

It Has Been 2 weeks i didnt touch on my BLOG........sorry ya^^
these days i got 2 camps to attend.....the first one is cameron highlands leadership camp.......# days 2 nights......from the 1st december to 3rd december...then on 5th of december to 9th of december.....5 days 4 nights camp in school...........it was a band camp.......
First of all.....i need to talk about the cameron camp.......it was very interesting and really taught me a lots and lots of things,,,,,,perhaps it had been a very good experience for us.........
This camp taught us how to communicate with everyone around us.........
Actually we got 3 categories of human beings here.........
The first one is visual........then auditory..................finally kinestetic
What is mean by visual......??????
Visual is talked about people who use mainly their eyes to look or remember something........
They like to "see" things through their eyes........
They like to do planning and always like clean and tidy pictures........of cause i am not lah.haha!

The Next is Auditory..........
Auditory is talked about people that like to use mainly their ears to hear or remember things,*
They seldom look at the people who talk to her or him......but will use their ears to listen to them......everyone will say auditory people do not respect them because didnt lok at them when they are talking,but this is exactly onot like this!!!!!! And they like MUSIC very much......without music they cannot stur.....canot remember things and anything.......after this........i think you will know is talking about me!!!! wahaha^i am this kind of people! hehe....

the last one is Kinestetic.....
I dont know whether i got spell wrong a not lah! haha
This kind of people like to move and is very active.....
They cannot sit still for a long time.....they like to play and talk nonsense around........
This kind of people cannot do job that just sit in the office but can find jobs such as salesman and so on lah! hehe..........

In this camp.....i also learned team work and self-disiplin loh!
I ate the original onion.......! i had never ate before!!!! it was a challenging task for me! really very EXICTING......!!!!!!!
We had Played amazing race......the KIms game........Tennis ball game....team spy and so on! all these were meaningful!!!!! thank God that i got the chance to attend this camp!!!! I very hope that i got the chance to attend this camp again in the future!!!!!! hehe^^^^^

Finally is my band camp..........just ended yesterday............
We had oganized a farewell for form 5 students and a Grand Passing Out parade for them too........POP was a new and this year only organized one.......
We got concert of junior band and senior band...........Yesterday we had done our best on it^^^ and we had got praising from our fierce coach.....plus conductor>>>.MR.Ho!
I felt proud of all our band members mainly Form 5!!!!! They are extremely great seniors and friends too^So i hope you all will stay in the band and dont leave us forever!!!!! remember!!!!
I loVe You all GUyS!!!!! Jia YOu***

Today is not as bright as i thought yesterday........but is just for the morning section lah......hehe!

Now i am free to write blog.....this is because i have made a stupid decision........and of cause i was influenced by my sister!

I didnt catch up the taxi.....! i was worried......i didnt know whether i should get on the taxi and go parade at 9.45am.......or wait for my brother to fetch me at 10.35am?? i was thinking......haih! but i had chosen to stay in home until 10.35am.......am i a mug???!!!!!!!!!!!

I shouldn't be here......i should have go to parade first! haih.........this is a waste/!!! need to waste petrol money.......if i go by taxi.......i can walk to may's father's shop.......that would be a good idea~!!!! haih..........it is just a stone throw distance!!!! esh......i had made a wrong decision!!!!!!!!

Actually i told my sister that i want to get on the taxi......but she disallowed me to do so......she said i must wait for brother...........haih!!!!!!! I regreted that i had listened to her!!! so bad of her.....haih.......** but how......cannot change the fact already...........must accept! haih...........next time i will be more careful in making any decision.....

After the Kbox..........
Now i am quite happy! because i Sung happily today.........although i had spent a lot on it...........but still is worthy!!!! wahaha.............i hope next time got time can call all my friends including my boys de friends lah......because they can sing boys' parts........no need we all girls to sing so low..........haha!

+今天.....取笑昨天和明天+

Do you know why i put this as my tittle?
This is because today......i was thinking about yesterday and the coming day.....tomorrow!
今天取笑。。。。。是拿来笑的意思！因为昨天的好笑事，我都想起。。。。
至于取笑明天。。。。。那是因为我也幻想到明天好笑的画面！哈哈。。。。。。可笑吧？？


Yesterday was a great day!




That night i went over to my 干妈 house........because she was celebrating her birthday.......she had brought it forward because her daughter and her family needed to go to stay on Pulau Pinang for the whole DECEMBER~so she did a birthday party yesterday........

That night she had prepared something that were totally different than what she had done last time........for her grandsons and grandaughters' birthdays........haha~.....yesterday she cooked kari ayam,soup,roasted duck,small fried chicken and prawns,and so on......very tasty! If compared to last time......she will be cooking french fried,fried chickens,jelly,all these kinds of fast food......because she knows that children like to eat these.....haha~she is a caring person....right??^^ hehe~

Why yesterday was a happy day??

Is was because yesterday.....i learned a 绕口令.......it was funny if you repeat and repeat the melody.....hah!
This was tought by a 11 years old boy.......he is a tall and fat boy......taller than me.....and fatter than me.......he is a positively gross boy......because his weight is 80kg........amazing right?? haha~!!
He played with my sister"s hp.......he had recorded almost 10 sound clips yesterday.......he was playful and yet very innocent.....haha~!! He repeated the 绕口令 many times.......that was why i felt so funny......
Let's see what he said yesterday........................~~~~~~

Please Read It In The Form Of Cantonese........Except english words......hehe~

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肥婆 exercise
底裤不够 size
屁股爆完胎

haha.....actually it is really very difficult to understand in reading like this,......but as you see it~
it is funny,..........wahaha! yesterday we laughed with the mouths thouching the ears.........haha! really gao xiao.......The boy brought us a lot of enjoyment......! Thank you xiao di di~!! hehe.........

Ok! Finished.......now is time to talk about tomorrow.......why i will say tomorrow will be a funny day too??
This is because tomorrow i can go sing K.......I LIKE SINGING SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!
Plus tomorrow can eat MP! i like MP too.......by immerging the seaweed into the hot soup......it will be the most delicious food in the world......after that i can sing whatever i like.....so free inside a room! haha..........i foreseen that i will be very happy tomorrow......let's see how! haha

搞笑nya............

Today i decided to write something special..........wahaha!


Do you notice that i am writing something that is funny and happy??


For this whole long weeks...........i were writing about something which were bad.....desperate......angry/.....foolish......disappointing.......and very loathe......

i thought all these will be my blog tittle and main points........but!!!!!!! wahaha*******

the first thing that i want to say is........


come on.....give me beat^^^

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(I LOVE AMC PERCUSSION......I AM FOND TO ALL OF YOU*)




Today is a great and grand day for percussion!!!! HURRAY~!!


Today......i want to write some happy things in my diary here......and is to be SAVED in my memory!


ALL percussionists are gao xiao.....haha!


8 of us formed a new group......names 八婆 group......haha!

Here is the AJK list of the 八婆 group 2008:

Kapten: Cheong Sui Cheng

Penolong Kapten: Audrey Yeap Shumin

Setiausaha: Ng Mun Yee

Bendahari: Lim Qin Shi

Ahli Istimewa: 1.Foo Ying Tong

2.Tang An Gel

3.Ashlee Phuah

4.Loh Weng Yee

haha.........very funny! today at "small genting" there..........we whole percussion......17 something people went to small genting......ate there..........chat at there! very syok.......although not all of them were involved......but i felt our hearts were holding together........GOOD FAMILY>>>>!!!!

The aunty who served us felt pressure! because all of us were simply luan luan called for drinks......here 3 milo,teh O......there orange juice.....pepsi and so on! really made aunty tou wen wen! haha.......after that we formed our ba po group.....haha! then called for frenchfried！3 rounds you know>???!!!!!!!! ate till full and die!!! haha!......our kapten and setiausaha called drinks again! i need to mention! Our Kapten had drunk 3 drinks.......and our setiausaha had drunk 2 drinks......wahaha!

Actually we are not only BA PO......but we are ghost eaters.......pocket eaters! We can eat more than what you can think! haha.........just to treat out section to eat things........must need more than RM 200++......this is because our ba po group's kapten is a pig! haha......dont believe it?? let see what is her record of eating.....

1.^PIZZA HUT^__>4 chicken wings,one 1000ml pepsi,half regular pizza,4 breads,cheese....(dont know got salad and mushroom soup a not)....RM 40++

2.^Small Genting^__>1 plate of noodles,3 drinks,share 3 plates of french fried......RM10++

She can eat so many things in just 1 round......really amazing! this is what just a percussionist can eat......if is whole percussion......i dont know what will be the COST? haha.......Dasyatnya!

You will be wondering........where is my “情情塔塔”......IS Here lah!!!! haha

i thought today i will be not free to think about him......but is true! i never think of him today! but i didnt realize that he is not just in my mind.......but in my soul and heart! Today,when we finished our lunch......we walked back to school......on the way.........i was laughing loudly.....as usual! we were still chatting about the BA PO group......and i wanted to call one of my junior which was walking in front of me! but weird thing happened!!

The name of him suddenly burst out from my mouth.....without hesitation.....i also dont know why! just in a moment!.....all my friends were looking at me......teasing me......"你叫他什么啊？？哈哈。。。。忠豪？？哈哈”......i was shocked by the name that just burst out from my mouth.......i couldnt understand.....why i didnt recall anything from him today......but his name could accidentally burst out.......??? it was weird.....and simply very discomfort.......

I know what is all about......

其实我说我要忘了。。。。。。。忘了他！是真的忘了。。。。。。可是是从另外一个地方，转到了另外一个地方。。。。。就好像是从脑里。。。。。去到了内心。。。。。。虽然记不起了，可是却不代表永远的消失。。。。。只是需要一些事，或是人。。。。。。就会把心中那把熄灭不掉的火给狠狠地燃烧起来！

忠豪。。。。。。这个名字，我告诉过你。。。。。。我好喜欢！因为很有亲切感！希望这个名字可以让你觉得骄傲。。。。。。其实我真的很不喜欢叫你 michael wong,..因为它。。。。一点都不像你！所以以后如果还有机会，我希望大家都能叫你忠豪，因为感觉好像跟你靠得很近。。。。。。很近！

今天一样的。。。。感触很多。。。。。姐姐也发我牢骚！说我怎么又写这么长。。。。。。可是我就是有什么，就写什么！自由发挥。。。。。嘻嘻！

结束了！！。。。。。。。最后我想祝天下有情人。。。。。。

其实只要心想事成就已经足够了。。。。。。。。

交叉=错？？？

我今天的心也无法安静下来～～～



一直在想。。。。。想着他！

我是个爱美的女生。。。。。所以近视也不愿意戴眼镜，因为我的眼镜真的太旧了！像个婆婆一样。。。。。带老花眼镜！哪里可以呢？？咳！！！！！！

所以只要看到跟他差不多的男生经过。。。。。。。我都会多看几眼，希望是他本人。。。。
无论是矮过他的。。。。。瘦小过他的。。。。。没他那么帅的。。。。。没他那么有型的。。。。。。我统统都不放过，只是单纯地希望能捕捉到他的影子。。。。。。他潇洒的背影。。。。。。即使他不是我的。。。。。即使他不可能是我的。。。。。即使他终究不在是我的。。。。。。我也愿意只让我看到他。。。。。。对他微笑，我也满足了！应该是该自足了。。。。。。。因为是自己先放弃的。。。。。


听了上面的话。。。。大概已经知道我的心情
在给自己打心情报告的分数的话，我觉得我会给20分，因为今天我必须做出选择了。。。。。
我听我干哥说。。。。。。我现在的状况，有两种选择。。。。
1.继续爱下去
2.立刻中断这一切
我想都没想。。。。。我就答：“当然要爱下去！”。。。这也是还没听到真相时的想法。。。。。如果现在你问回我同样的问题。。。。。。我会先想。。。。。。然后答：“不能爱下去了！”
真相就是。。。。。。他的女朋友。。。。。。是我的朋友！怎能因为我一个人的爱。。。。而牺牲了两个相爱的人的爱呢？所以 ALL THESE MUST_____STOP! STOP! STOP!


就在今天。。。。这瞬间......这一闪那！我决定了。。。。。。我放弃了。。。。。。我绝望了！
我要跳出这个不属于我的浪漫。。。。。
+亲爱的+你走吧！
×对不起，我爱你×

i got something to say....

Today is the worst day of these weeks......


今天心情很差叻！因为今天被两个婆婆骗钱，而且还得被爸爸骂～！
昨天我妈妈去补牙了，可是回到家就掉了，所以今天得出去再补一次。。。
原本可以舒舒服服呆在家的我，也得出去帮忙爸妈顾店---
我妈不在店的那段时间，发生了大事！真倒霉！
我店来了两个婆婆。。。。。他们点了两碗面，说等她们吃得差不多的时候，再来一碗斋面。。。。
等我端两碗面给她们时，她们说还有一碗斋面，所以先别收钱。。。。。
可是因为我记性差，刚好爸爸也忘了。。。。。等了一段时间后，我去收碗碟，才愕然发现那两位婆婆已经走了，也可以说是逃走吧。。。。。
我立刻马上告诉爸爸，他的表情也是马上变了！也是一脸错愕地看着那两位婆婆的桌位。。。然后才回过神来。。。说：“她们是不是还没给钱？？”
我答道：“是咯”
我爸爸又问：“你有看到她们往哪里走吗？？”
我先是遥遥头。。。。然手就用手指指了右边的方向。。。。：“好像是那边”
我爸便沿着那条路走去。。。。。想把她们给找回来。。。。。那当然是失败啦！！！！！
回来后的第一件事。。。。。就是骂得我半生死！然后就是把这件事宣泄出来，公告天下！
之后我的”日子" 就在取笑中度过。。。。。个个叔叔，个个婶婶都说：“好糗哦！被婆婆骗。。。。”
咳。。。。。真想找个洞把自己埋起来。。。。。避开众人的取笑目光！”
这个就不再多说了！还有一件事。。。。。。令我笑了，又哭了。。。。可是不算是哭笑不得。。。。哈哈！！笨蛋～


I got something to say.............


actually today.......i was mostly looking at "there"........his shop......
i wish i could see him.......although i might not know is him,......because i didnt wear spectacles......but i just wanna see him......face to face..........want to ask him whether his SPM is going on smoothly a not......but not a chance also..........

I HAS NOTHING TO SAY>...............


When i was back to normal......suddenly i saw a boy with uniform came towards me.......i didnt put much attention on him......because i had already forgotten what were i searching for.........
BUT!
when i was walking into the shop......he entered with the other door........we met like drawing a "cross" sign.......
what is meant by 向左走，向右走。。。。i think it was suitable to describe this........
Finally i saw him! he was quite tall.........pretty handsome.........and getting more and more cool! he was walking by holding a hp.......he came with one gang of friends......after that he ordered our mee........then when i was walking towards him to give him the chili........he talked to me..........i was frightened! my heart has dropped into my boat......i had never think that he will talk to me!
all these didnt came in a right place.....and a right position.....this is because i was sweating and dirty that time.....i didnt want to let him see me with this look! Ah Sum's look..........HAIH~~!!! but fate is playing fool of us.........never end! but i am still very appreciate this kind of fate.........because i really hope to see him or meet him again........if fate allowed more than this.........i will ask fate to give me one more chance to express my love to him again.........
.......Like what you said.......i am a 笨蛋！
i agree.......i am a fool....

today is my OK day

hello....me again! i decided to use english to write today's diary.......erm!@ i dont know why....but just wanted to do so.......
why today is my OK day leh?? this is because today had no bad things or despair things happened to me....
today and tomorrow are my parents' off days.....so we whole family went out to eat breakfast......shopped in the tesco.....and had our dinner outside too!
haha.....i got a funny thing to share~
just now i played miss call with him.....
the first time.......it was a long and boring call......
then he answered......and i put up the call.......
Next,he called me.......and i didnt enquired......
after that.....i played again with a short and quick "du"
haha,.........it was a funny one.....
then he called again..........
these actions last for few minutes......and he never call again!
i dont know whether he is angry.....or he knows who am i~~
if he really knows..........then i will die^^^
if he doesn't know.........then i will die^^^too........haha~
what a childish game......haih.........

中。。。。心情

今天啊。。。。我重读了自己这几个星期所写的日记。。。。。觉得都好短哦！！！
原来啊！！！ 自己用了很久的时间所写出来的东西，不用一下子。。。。。就能读完！
这也让我体会到，台上一分钟，台下十年功～～
今天我的心情不错。。。。。放晴！嘻嘻。。。。。
今天在学校学了好多，如果我说。。。。。身为一个‘专业”的乐队的一分子，我竟然在学校的一间课室，帮老师洗米，煮饭。。。。。甚者切菜，，那是不是天大的笑话叻？？ 哈哈～～～
不过我现在才知道。。。。原来饭不能用擦的！还有只要洗两次。。。就已经足够了。。。
可是我家人却是洗五六次以上，还要拼命地擦。。。。才可以送进口里，
老师却说：“洗这么多次，什么营养都洗走完咯！！怪不得你吃不大。。。。”
哈哈·。。。。我觉得好好笑哦。。。。。老师！你真特别，为了大家。。。竟然还因为不够青瓜而开车出去买～
不过你这样的动作。。。。。有时候也会令大家傻眼！！！哈哈·。。。。不过还是要谢谢您！！ 像我今天说的：“老师，您真伟大。。。”

我刚刚去完 parade,本想去吃寿司。。。。。但是晚餐吃太饱了！而且。。。。。sushi king 这个地方，令我有点无奈。。。。。毕竟哪里是。。。。。咳！！！ 可惜啊！可惜啊！
不过我还是回去吃的。。。。只因我是 SUSHI Fan!!!! wahaha.......

还有。。。。。今天真的非常搞笑！不过现在不得空写。。。。。迟些再谈吧！！！
Bye^^

下。。。。心情

如果今天要给自己的心情打分数，我会给40分。。。

今天又跟姐姐不合了。。。。又骂架，我不知道为什么最近只想一个人。。。。不想跟她讲话、、

after that.......我就自己一个人跑了下楼。。。。。以为可以有一点属于自己的空间，怎知道婆婆竟然用羽毛球拍打我，

原因是因为我弹piano.....他说会给外面的人听到。。。。。会进来偷东西！

我真是又气又难过。。。。。。。。



我哭不是因为疼，而是觉得这个家搞得我无地自容。。。。我越来越讨厌这个地方，我只想整天出门，我不想呆在这里！！！！



我竟然还会无聊到要重看我小学时代的卡通片，LION KING II.....Simba's Pride~

不过我不能否认，看卡通片真的能让人心情放松许多，而且我还发现了一些以前可能不会去理会的一些片段。

原来 Simba 叫他的女儿不要乱跑，不要跟陌生人来往是从别的家庭也可以看得到的。。。

当 Simba 在唱歌时，有一只小鸟正在学习飞，当它成功了，它的妈妈就赶了它回去窝里。。
有一只小鹿，它正在学习如何站起来，走路。。。。可是它每次都跌倒，但是它的妈妈总是会用口拉起它的尾巴，把它扶起来，小鹿又开始一步一步地走着，终于它学会了走路。。。。再来又一步一步地加快速度，最后它也学会了跑，
当它越跑越远时，它妈妈也一样吧他捉回来了。

你们知道为什么吗？

那是因为天下的父母都是一样的，透过其他的动物，Simba 的女儿明白到无论自己是不是已经会走，会跳，会跑，会飞。。。。。。想要自由了。。。。父母还是会阻止自己的子女乱跑乱跳的。。。。。那是因为他们知道子女无论是 1 岁，还是99岁。。。。。在他们的眼里。。。。他们始终是小孩子～！！

透过动物。。。。。。也反映了人·······

死蟑螂～～～～～！！！！！！！

OH MY GOD@!!!!!!
如果我告诉大家。。。。。今天····有件悲剧发生了。。。。。。。。
而且还是大悲剧呢～～～！！！
Tonight as usual i was watching "家好月圆" with my sister......but we had a squarell......so i had chosen to sit on the bed.......than sit together with her....
as usual too.....i was watching by holding my brother's pillow.......
i changed my position of sitting often......
hugging laid against the wall......
hugging it in front......
many many many many many times later......
i discovered that my hand 很痒叻。。。。。then i didnt care of it.......只是甩一甩我的手。。。。。然后就没事了

我依旧看戏。。。。。突然我又觉得痒痒的。。。。。。这次换成脚了。。。。。我又是用力地甩。。。。。最后又没事了。。。。。。

then i changed my post again......shit thing happened!!!!!!!!

我的手又痒痒的。。。。。。好像有东西在爬叻！！！！！！

可是我终究没有看。。。。。也是甩罢了～

也许我真的是太专心了。。。。。。因为当时做到荷妈妈阿月的戏码。。。。。太紧张了～

过了不久。。。。我的脚。。。。。又是我的脚了～～～！！！！！！！！！！！！！

那是我真的觉得浑身不舒服。。真的有东西在爬了！！！。。。于是我就跳下床。。。。。用力跳。。。。。

SHIT********尽然跌了一只蟑螂！！！！！！！！！！

它一着地。。。。。便开始爬。。。。。深怕被人发现自己一样。。。。。

那时的我。。。。已经 rooted to the ground.....i couldn't stop thinking that it was on my body just now!!!!!!!

then i went quickly to the toilet.....and washed all over my body......拼命努力擦！！！！誓死要把给它爬过的地

方。。。。。。。擦到皮都脱落。。。。。这样才算大功告成～～！！！

惨啦～！！！过了几天。。。。。。我还是很难放下、每当我的身体感到痒，我就会突然震了一阵。。。。。然后快快

摸一下。。。。。。我真的被吓坏了～！！！！可恶的死蟑螂！！！！！！！

last time my friend told me that......when she was small......she used to play with the cockroach......she wont

scare of it.....but after one incident which the cockroach climbed up to her hand......she was frightened.....

until now.........she is phobic to cockroaches.......and this is what happened to me too!

我发誓！！！！！！！我以后一定不会嫁给一个怕蟑螂的老公～～因为一个怕。。。。。再加上一个怕。。。。。就变

更加怕。。。。。因为我们会互相吓到对方。。。。。。这也是发生在我和姐姐身上的。。。。。哈哈！～～

两年～

不知不觉我跟他已经分开了。。。。两年吧。。可是却好像是十几年一样！

以前我并没那么想念他。。。。直到听到了朋友的那番话。。。。我才知道这几年我并没忘掉。。。我和他的一点一滴

以前他脾气好。。。心地好。。。又可爱。。。又聪明。。。

可是这么多年了。。。。他改变了许多。。。

我每次都在想，如果我没放弃过他，没跟他分手，他一定不会变成现在这个样子！

他就连考高二测试，他也无动于衷。。。不读书！常常只会玩闹————

都是因为女朋友才学坏的。。。我好想念以前那个单纯且可爱的你。。。。。可以回到我身边吗？？

我从来没和你合照过。。。那是因为那时还小嘛！又怕尴尬，又害羞

可是现在都可以在你的部落格看到和女友一起拍的亲密照！你知道我的心有多难过，多羡慕吗？？

我跟你在一起两年了，分开了也两年了。。。。

两年又两年的现在。。。。。我们还会有更多的两年吗？

压力…………

压力啊压力！！～

做人有压力。。。。。

工作有压力。。。。。

功课有压力。。。。。

上学有压力。。。。。

交朋友有压力。。。。

甚者××

恋爱有压力。。。。。

人常说。。。。。
恋爱有三个阶段。。。。
1.找到自己最爱的人
2.找到最爱自己的人
3.找到厮守终生的人

恋爱有无数个可能性
1.思恋
2.迷恋
3.痴恋
4.单恋
5.暗恋
6.明恋
7.相恋
8.热恋
当然不止这些啦。。。。。咳，。。。
说真的。。。。我是找到了我最爱的人，不过他并不是最爱我的人，也不是能跟我厮守终生的人。。。
但是我知道未来很能说嘛！可能他也会成为我可以陪伴终生的人啊·～丷哈哈

有件事。。。。是我最近才从我的朋友口中知道的。。。。就是我的前男友的事～
他跟她说。。。。一直到现在。。。。他交过的女朋友当中，跟我在一起。。。最像对情侣=
我听了后。。。。。心里非常意外！也非常开心！好像那时就飞奔去他的面前。。。。对他说
…………我。。。。。其实————跟你想的是一样的！
我们还能在一起吗？？


太可笑了。。、。。。怎么可能呢？？
他现在已经有女朋友了！还这么说！那我就是坏女孩了！
反正那也可能是骗人的！！！
所以到现在我还是半信半疑。。。。哈哈！可笑极了。。。。。
他还说。。。。以前我因为减肥。。。节食···而常常胃痛
我告诉他。。。。。。我的胃很痛，可是附近没东西吃。。。。我忍的很幸苦，
于是他那天就陪我一起节食。。。。。一面饿着肚子。。。。一面去我们的恋爱老地方。。。。
我们一直通电话。。。。。直到他到达为止。。。。他说：“我知道你有多辛苦了，我的胃也很痛。。。你以后别再节食了···”
我听了后。。。。。有两个反应
1.心痛
2.感动

他是个大傻瓜！ 怎么可以做这种事呢！
那时候我就知道。。。。。。他是我这一辈子……最爱最爱最心疼的那个！！

十一月的侵袭

今天天灰灰。。。。其实应该有很多值得开心的事。。。。不过当回想起。。。。又好像不怎么觉得快乐
你们有试过吗？咳。。。。
我在想。。人为什么一定要这么计较？？ 人为什么一定要这么不讲道理？难道除了吃,喝,玩,乐.....就不能生存下去吗？
咳。。。。。做人好累！做个受人欢迎的人更累！更不用说要做一个十全十美的人！！！！！！！ 烦·``


^顶不顺^

悟性如光………

一次，弟子问佛祖：
“您所说的极乐世界，我看不见，怎么能相信呢？”
佛祖把弟子带进一间漆黑的屋子，告诉他墙角有一把锤子。
弟子不管是瞪大眼睛，还是迷成小眼，仍然伸手不见五指，只好说:
"我看不见”
佛祖点燃了一支蜡烛，
弟子果然看见墙角里有一把锤子，

（你看不见的。。。。就不存在吗？)